I didn't know Britney had such a nice song until today?Yeah...it's kinda meaningful..actually sounded as if she wanted to start afresh and all...but sadly...she's liddat still.I used to adore her when she first started. That young,innocent, sweet peronality.All gone when one rises to become a hot celeb. Sad for her.I'll try to upload the song...

My dear shah shah!!!add me on msn ok??I need your help now!!my msn: joanna_jota@hotmail.com. Thanks darling!

Nothing seems to be the way

That it used to

Everything seems shallow

God give me truth

In me

And tell me somebody is watching

Over me

And that is all I'm praying is that

Someday I will understand

In God's whole plan

And what he's done to me

Oh but maybe

Someday I will breathe

And I'll finally see

I'll see it all in my baby

Don't you run too fast my dear

Why don't you stop?

Just stop and listen to your tears

They're all you've got

It's in you

You see somebody is watching

Over you

And that is all I'm praying is that

Someday you will understand

In God's whole plan

And what he does to you

Oh but maybe

Someday you will breathe

And you'll finally see

You'll see it all in your baby

You'll see it all in your baby

No moment

Will be more true

Than the moment

I look at you

It's in you

You see somebody is watching

Over you

And that is all I'm praying is that

Someday you will understand

In God's whole plan

And what he does to you

Oh but maybe

Someday you will breathe

And you'll finally see

You'll see it all in your baby

You'll see it all in your baby

You'll see it all in your baby

You'll see it all in your baby

I've gone too far
and I can't go far
God don't give up and
don't let go

God loves me more than I deserve
He sent his son to suffer and die
For a sinner like me, ashame I should be

Lord please forgive me for all i've done
Help me O Lord,to turn back to you
The road ahead is rocky and tough
The Promised Land seems so far ahead
I can't go on but I can't let go

Help me to press on Lord
To rely my strength on yours alone
To lean not on my own understanding
But to trust in you with all my heart soul and mind.

The decision is mine
I compromised and defied
I hung on because of pride
He became the one i dislike

A choice I made
A choice I regret
To let go or hold on
To move on or stay on

To let go and Let God
is the answer to all.

Christmas in Singapore

I had a splendid rest this Christmas. Slept almost the whole day ytd,came back rejuvenated for work today.

This Christmas is rather special. After so many years of attending different christmas parties, I enjoyed the one held on Sunday best! It was the adult cell's party at Coffee Master and I liked it so much because instead of the usual potluck,we had very christmasy food.

The Dinner Menu:

Dinner Menu
Appetizer
1) Smoked Salmon
2) Tuna Loin
3) Cheese Sticks
4) Cesar Salad

Main course
1) Baby Pork Ribs
2) Roast Beef
3) Baked Cheese Mussels
4) Pan fried Salmon
5) Scallop
6) Deep Fried Calamari
7) Spaghetti
8) Honey baked ham
9) Vegetable
10) Baby potato

The food was a blast! The calamari was gone within minutes,and the tuna loin was something very special. All thanks to Robin for the hard work and service! And for Merlinda and Robin,opening up the place to hold the party.

The games were rather well planned too. We had a round of ice breakers, followed by dinner,den some christmas singsiration and finally,gift exchange!

Not too disorganized,nor too boring. Well done to the organizers Betty and Szr Hwei for all the hard work and effort put into organizing this. I really enjoyed myself.

Pictures of the party will be up soon. Once I receive all the phontos from the camerapple.hehe..

As for my presents....well....to be continued...

Wow...another day of PH tom...and 1 more nxt week before it's back to Square 1.

Celebrated Dad's birthday on Wednesday, and I'm glad this time my bros took the initiative to plan..albeit not very organized and stuff but at least they finally made the effort. We went to jack's place and all except Miah ordered beef. I was a lil disappointed with mine tho. Felt it wasn't as good as compared to Aston's. But bro felt his was quite nice and very juicy. Guess I made the wrong order.heh...

We wanted to blow the bday cake over there,but was too full to even contain any dessert. Hence,it was off back to home till like 10pm. Our digital camera seemed to have stopped functioning and we used my camera instead.well....here's what happened.

i kinda like this pic, miah looks like a lil boy here,so amazed at how the birthday cake looks.haha...goodness he's gonna become a teen in 2yrs time but he still looks like a lil kid!

dad and the cake.he looks tired.all the time spent working not just in church but even at home. He's my #1 dad!!!

- Nv throws his temper at us

- Very patient,loving

- A man after God's heart

- Uses his life as an example

- Faithful

- Can do everything from household chores to the manual stuff

( When mum passed away, dad actually helped me to bun up my hair. THere was this stick thing tt was in fashion den, and he saw the video instructing the ways to tie it up and when we went back,he managed to perfect it!my dad's amazing ain't he?

Then there were the times when a pipe,or a circuit or any mechanical or technical stuff seemed to have stopped working, Dad will be the one fixing it. Even if he can't do it,he'll keep trying and experimenting until he figured it out)

- Helpful

(When I had my shop, even tho he was so tired from work and all already, he came down at night just to help me fix the lights. This was something he hadn't done before - the wiring in bugis street and homes are really different, but he fixed em all for me nontheless and the nxt day,he still had to wake up early for svc.)

There are just so many illustrations I can go on and on about my dad. The thoughts of em simply warms my heart. But I shall stop here.haha..

mum and dad

this is what happens when u use a cameraphone to take pics. it was set to timer mode,but we cldn't see the screen because my phone is so slim,it'll fall off without support.so we tried with this.

den we tried again...but.....the cake's still missing!hahaha....but we were all happy. wat's more impt is the family picture.

supposed to use photoshop to add in some wordings..but haven gotten down to it yet.soon soon!

God's plan?

When it was time to move out of Church and back into Tampines, I was reflecting more of what God was doing in my dad's life. The first significant 5yrs was abt his walk with God (not sure if daddy will let me disclose this, so I wun specify wat exactly), and then for 5years, God called him to servie in COS Woodlands. It was something that he initially rejected going over,but knowing it was God's call,obediently,he went. We were truly blessed over there. Samson and I were very pampered there, always receiving very generous gift vouchers on our birthdays and expensive toys on Christmas and sometimes for no special occasion at all. Because of my dad, we received blessings we didn't deserve.I really felt like a Princess there.

Best of all, i remember my bible knowledge den was VERY GOOD!Sam and I used to top the Sunday scholl classes during bible quizzes and even tests. (Yes,we had sunday sch tests). Albeit,COS Woodlands is a small church,but the kids were really close.And I rmb how all of us and even the teens will get together to disturb the young couples.hahaha....looking back,it sure brings a smile to my face.

Moving Forward, my dad was called back to serve in COS Marine Parade after 5years of service in Woodlands.And for about 5yrs and abit more later, our family was asked to stay in church.Time flew,5 years passed and we were back in Tampines again. These were the significant 5yrs of my dad and my family's life. Together, we served whereever Dad was called to.So I thought,maybe this time,it was just Dad tt was gonna be called into some other significant 5years. We dunno bout that.Prolly God will reveal it soon.

Now..let's talk bout why I feel this time,it's about me and not my dad. I nv knew moving house was tt tiring esp when I'm working full time and had to juggle with other personal commitments, and when we moved back to tampines, I personally feel that it's kinda going into the misison field. If you compare the living conditions of tam and MP, i'm sure many will know MP is kinda like a place where the mostly well-to-do resides.So it was 5years of blessings,and back to serving in the neighbourhood.I've adapted to my hometown again...and settling in comfortably again.

But...God still seems to think I'm too comfortably settled down,and He decided that it was best for Joanna to move...BUT this time,it's not about moving house. But in 2008, a colleague and I will be transferred to another office. Most pple will feel it's good. Yup.good...because i no longer have to face the detestable political bitch everyday.YAY! Good, because it's kinda like a career progression for me as I will be handling 1 key account,doing more bulk rectuitment.Woohoo! Good,because it's nearer to the management, which means ur efforts will be recognised.

But why am i dreading it?Because I've gotten to know many good colleagues here,if you dun think of those political pple. And I'm definitely gonna miss those lunch hours spent bitching and crapping and laughing. Moving on means having to settle down in a new office,getting to know colleagues all over again, taking time to find out the office's protocol. And it also means having to wake up earlier,travel further, expenses will increase.

But all in all, I know He's prolly teaching me/reminding me of many biblical pple eg Abraham, Moses...etc...tt when God told em to move,they moved obediently w/o questioning him. I will learn to move obediently, cheerfully and continue to Trust the Lord who has brought me thru so many circumstances,the Lord who has taken care of me and blessed me all these 22 years. I'm coming out of Egypt,into the promised.

Is his will really for me to become a missionary?tt don't know.But I'll listen,obey and take 1 step at a time.

Enchanted

I finally got to watch ENCHANTED!!!! It's such a nice lovely FAIRYTALE!!and it's been some time since I last heard any princessy fairytales since I grew up.

The movie is a show well done, how they incoperated cartoon farytale and reality..it's like surrealism!haha....and when you got out of the movie,you seriously feel as if you just came out of a fairytale. Plus the main actress has such a lovely voice..the songs she sang were so lovely. Definitely worth buying the VCD/DVD. i just love musicals like these!! Reminds me of good old musicals like Sound of Music, Annie, Mary Poppins.

my weekend

it was an interesting weekend...a turn of events...



supposed to go to the zoo on sat,but last min 1 of my colleagues had to go to the hospital as her mum has to undergo some operation. in the end, i swapped duties with her,came back to the office to work 1/2 day. Was quite fun tho. Ended up chatting with the other on duty colleague.hehe...



And I ended up going jurong for awhile...to the other office if u get wat i mean...can't disclose here...realised how 'unhelpful' the pple there were.quite a disappointment as compared to when i first went there for lessons. mentor doesn't really help as well but it taught me once again to be independent and not rely on anyone...esp if i really wanna be a tentmaker,i can't expect pple to help me.it's gonna be a 'dog-eat-dog world".

oh..did i mention bout my shopping trip??? I went taka to shop for christmas gifts last week.bought just a few gifts only but it cost so much.ahhhhh....but it's really nice to see your frens smile when u give them gifts.of cos...those who have been receiving cards from me will know,this yr is no exception and it's once again,a one of a kind unique christmas card.hehe...i'm so excited!!

oh..did i mention?I bumped into jimmy and tina!! both of them still look as charming as ever,it's as if they nv grew up. Tina was once my mentor, but the usual practice,disappeared after awhile. ahaha...I seem to have a history of mentors who'll mentor me at the beginning for a few mths and poof!i'm on my own again. Jimmy was my leader when i attended THE WALK training camp. He was like a big brother to me, spurring and encouraging me thruout the camp,he was like a big bro.hehe....really miss those times.

And so....shopping on a friday festive month ain't fun at all. I ended up waiting for the bus for like 30mins for the bus. By the time i boarded the bus, i received a text from my friend tt she has already reached home.dots!!! what made the journey back even more frustratin is the fact tt the jam in orchard was so bad, i reached home only 1 and a half hrs later.usually,i'll be hm within 45mins.

Anyway...shopping was fun. went bugis street with my cousin yesterday...as usual,i ended up getting something from Yvonne's shop./ Yvonne's my very good fren.we used to be shop neighbours and she'll look after my stall everytime i'm out of town or when i'm not feeling well.and when i've not sold a single item for the day,she'll try to get her customers to buy something from me. There was no jealousy,competition between the 2 of us. She may be from China,but isn't slutty,shrew, bitchy at all. I truly cherish our friendship and sometimes when i go ddown to have dinner with her,she'll give me a treat. Oh!and you know wat?I'm this short,and she's that tall. I'm bad at chinese,she's bad in English.haha...I guess...opposites really attract. On top of all her good traits,she's a good listener as well as a good conversationalist. I always enjoy every single minute spent with her. One of my besties no matter how often we dun talk, no matter how unoften i visit her.hehe...

yes..so my sunday evening was spent watching star awards and asian idols. It's such a surprise tt SINGAPORE won.issit cos most singaporeans own a mobile and can afford to spend their money on voting?hmmm...

Friday! Friday! Friday!

it's Friday again!!!we all look forward to a relaxing weekend...and I'm going to the zoo tomorrow!!! Can't wait!!!

Tonight...it'll be a time of christmas shopping at Taka.Hope to get good buys. whee!

Have a gr8 Friday!!

the office is quiet..and i just feel like blogging.

had a packed weekend.....celebrated dearest YUNZ bday and it was a rather relaxed celebration where we sat down to sing some songs and had some entertainers like john,felicia and moses entertaining us with their nonsense. took a cab back with Ruth and we had so much to talk about.

Friday,went to help out with the thanksgiving,watched the concert and I was greatly touched by it. Not by the show actually..but more like the efforts, the preparations and attitudes of every single one who played a part of this grand event.

Sat...woke up late,had breakfast with my relatives,slacked awhile before spending most part of the day rebonding my hair. It's nice! I like it! *Grinz*

Attended 1st svc on Sunday just so I can spend some time with Mo,Sean and Yunz at breakfast before trying to get some calls done to arrange some viewings...and because it was raining so heavily, i ended up spending some time with Ruth again.hehe...she really appreciates my crappiness.heh

been thinking so much bout my attitude of late....and i realised how distant I've grown away from God.It's so easy to talk bout God in front of people,but personal relationship?it's just not there.I've not been setting aside time for God and I just feel so terrible bout it.I miss tt relationship, tt closeness and I yearn for more of Him. But somehow,it just seems so difficult to be right there with him. I've done things tt have made him upset and even tho i know he lovs and forgives, how can i take his love for granted?

aAnd thru this period of time,God continued to shower his love for me. Someone offered to sponsor HALF my driving fees and told me not to worry bout the money if tt's the reason why I'm not taking lessons.like WOW!i didn't even pray or ask for it. I turly feel blessed and I really dun wanan take God's love for granted.

Pls pray tt i'll draw close to God again..

PICTURES!!

and I've received some of the pics I took recently...so here they are...

meet Gwen the Funkilicious babe!she's very friendly and funny!

Chiew Ling, have been introduced b4,she's my bestie at work! Quiet,but crazy when she's just with me! *Grinz*

meet Adrian and my manager doing what she usually does with her hand.The ELEGANCE of it!heh

and so...they call me the mushroom

my buddy @ work,showing off my mushroom concoction

doing this will make us look 5kg slimmer

Jaslyn,the pregnant MAMA

a candid shot of us during our recent company dinner.it's like posing for some lovely ad.heh

Now tt's all folks!shall upload more pics when they are sent to me!

i'm JUST NOT IN THE MOOD to work.*yawnz* early mornings are usually liddat.and by the time I'm ready and in the mood to work....it's about time to knock off.Which EXPLAINS why i can't be working an office hour job. I'm simply just not a morning person. doing this everyday is such a dread.

Office job makes me feel like a bird caged in...with no freedom. this is like our prison,we sit here for more than 8hrs,stare at the com the whole time, bear with the gossips...and PATHETIC leave.haha...

ahhh!!okie..i'm whining.i really miss those days when i had all the freedom,go for my holidays when i feel like it,and more imptly, the working hrs is my ideal working hr.hahaha....start at 2...knock off at 8.

okie..i can't wait to embark on my new career although i've learnt not to be impulsive which means..i just gotta keep praying for God's strength to bring me thru this whole period of torment.

Nevertheless,I've made many wonderful colleagues here as well. a day w/o em makes me burn lesser calories, a day w/o their company is like a day without the sun shining. Yes!they make me luff and I make them luff.

We just had our company welfare dinner agian..and thru from the journey,during the meal and back home,it was just a whole time of laughing and teasing and all.

Photos will be out soon!wait till my colleague uploads it.Alrights...whining's over!till den!

Thank YOU!

Thank God!!! Came into the office early this morning,reminded jane bout searching for me, den she asked me to call Uncle James and he managed to save the cross stitch.

I'm filled with happiness and relief. Just couldn't bear the thought of losing something so precious.

Thanks Ee foo, for going down to my old hse just to help me salvage the cross stitch.

Thanks grace for the little tag of comfort.

and also to my pals who consoled me last night on MSN.

It really warms my heart to see I have friends who will be there when i really need em. Thank you for all this little acts of love!! :)

the tears just start rolling down everytime i think of it..

How could he have forgotten it??All of things...he forgot the most precious gift that money cannot buy,and something we can nv get anywhere.
She was his beloved.his one and only precious.noone can replace her.i know tt's for sure.it just breaks my heart to know i'm nv gonna be able to look at that piece of art and be reminded of my late mum. it's never gonna be by my bedside everytime i wake up.

the moment i heard tt they've knocvked down everything..my tears just couldn't stop rolling down.i just hope tt i will not get angry with my dad.i just hope tt i can pretend nothing happened...i just hope that i can really move on.

but everytime i think of the efforts mum put into making those cross stitch....the love she showered upon me...the cross stitch she made specially for me...the design i chose....i just can't help but get upset with my dad for FORGETTING the most PRECIOUS gift.i remembered reminding him to bring back the cross stich as well.it was right there,next to all the stuff tt i needed him to bring back for me.how cld he say tt he has forgotten it???HOW CLD HE???!!!!

i just pray tt jane will be able to find at least the cross stitch even if the frames have been spoilt.

Pls pray tt i wun get upset with my dad.pls pray tt all's not lost yet.

Wedding Weekend

It was a really hectic weekend for me!!!
Sat came down to work in the morning before rushing down to attend Justin's wedding. Attended his wedding dinner last night and well...it didn't end as late as most wedding dinners usually do, however,still considered late because of the fact tt I've gotta sit for a paper today tt I'm totally not confident in.

However, committed everything to God knowing tt I shld not let failure get a stronghold over me. How can I assume tt I'll fail this paper without even taking it? How can I be defeated when the battle hasn't even begn?If i tell myself tt I've lost, eventually...i WILL lose.So i prayed agst it knowing tt i've tried my best reading thru my textbook.I can only pray for God to fight this battle with me and thank my fellow prayer warriors for praying for me today. Thanks guys! ineed EXTRA wisdom from above today.

Now..let's talk bout the wedding...Surprisingly,the food was good!as compared to the previous time when I had a company buffet dinner, yesterday's surpassed watever was served at the buffet. The dessert was really good too..it was some mango thing..tasted like mango.(DUH!).haha...but i was too full to have 2nd helping. *joanna shldn't be eating too much anyway*.heh..

Den halfway during the dinner,mel ad bev saboed the couple by getting em to do actions to a song which they spontaneously did and i have to admit, they were not just sporting but they did it REALLY REALLY WELL!!

kim's aunties did some sort of drama...i thought it was so so only because after awhile..it became too draggy.all in all, ambience was good, food was good and company was good too.

Now...i look forward to meeting up with all my friends --->Class 4E 2001 class gathering, meet up with my babes from here...christmas party at work, ex classmates from MDIS and ex colleagues from Jeregon and all my long time good friends whom i've not met or caught up with for so long.

Grace!! Let me know when you're free ok??So I can quickly slot it into my schedule.I can't wait to see ya!!!

Tt's all for now.May u guys have a blessed week!!

GoodBye FPM....

Today marks the last day of YPM Friday Prayer Meeting. And I feel a tinge of regret,disappointment and sadness...

I've been in Prayer Ministry for about 5 years when Chris just took over...and transited to matt,came doreen who joined us...3 of us --> Matt, Doreen & I, the core for Prayer min...we've been thru it together for 3 years and now...it's time to say goodbye.

I remember how when we first got together, 3 of us wld think of nice exotic places to go for dessert. I remember very clearly once we had no idea where to go and decided to just drive around east coast and siglap and decided tt we'll settle on the cafe tt we've nv been to and liked the feel of it.but in the end,i think we ended up not eating at all.haha...

Then,Matt decided that we shld all meet up on Friday mornings to jog,pray and have breakfast.Doreen was still studying,taking her diploma for drama or something and I....had all the time in the world cos i had my own shop.We were at the closest because we had so much time to share bout our week, encouraged one another with our ups and downs,and how God pulled us through and then we'll pray for each other,prayed in the Spirit and asked God for prayer pointers before we discussed,talked further and headed off for breakfast. That was our strongest time,and we had almost 20 pple turning up for prayer mtg.unity was there.

Perhaps...we weren't ready/prepared enuff for the big number,and attendance started to drop from 20...to 15....10....and den...5...or less...

It was also a time when Doreen went back to teach,and I...started working.We met lesser and lesser,prayed lesser and lesser and things started to tear us apart (ministry wise).We felt totally drained out with all the commitments and deadlines and pple who served alongside us just dropped out due to personal commitments.

It was a disappointment to see these pple falling out....but sometimes...i wonder if i was the cause of it...due to some personal relationship problems,had I caused these pple to feel weird attending FPM?Or....caused em to stop supporting us because of tt personal problems?I will nv know...but till now,i still think that I was the cause for the fall of FPM. Had i wake up my idea,had i matured earlier....things may not have turned out the way things are now....

I know God still has plans for me in the area of prayer....I know..he wants me to support YPM Prayer ministry...but because of the problem..and disappointment...i know I can nv continue playing a part in this ministry.Besides, the burden is too heavy for me to bear.

Reflecting back on all that has happened in FPM,the good and the bad,the pple who started off with us, the pple who came....and left....these are all special memories that I'm sure those who feel for FPM will always remember. I know that God WILL DEFINITELY rebuild this ministry and I pray that the person he has in mind will take up the challenge and lead the young pple to greater heights.

FPM...will always be a part of my ministry 'memories'.....the only ministry tt I actually committted for so long,yet nv feel like giving up....or feeling tired even tho it takes up my fridays...but i guess...when u gotta go...u gotta go.

To my fellow core members....

Matt,you made a great LEADER...thanks for always giving me a chance to explore new ideas, for always believing tt I had potential....for not condemning me..like many would and for being such a great friend. This is not the end of the ministry for u.Make full use of those 2 years to learn and experience more of God and bring back whatever you have learnt to share with many young people who are hungry for more of God.

Doreen...the one who's always late...u were the best mentor and friend i had!Thanks for being there at my lowest point of time,bringing me to the HK cafe,showing me where secret garden was and comforting me when i needed it most. You've been such an encouragement and I know that God will definitely bless you when you're out there tentmaking!Continue to be tt supportive friend u are...and i know u're a great sister and daughter to your family too. God bless u!!

to the NOW regular members:

Ee Foo: U're always an encouragement,supporting this ministry with your words of encouragement. I see you have a heart for the young people.Don't let go of this desire to mentor them.Your efforts are not in vain and God sees your heart. Great is your reward. I'm encouraged to see you persevering despite all the 'politics' in church. Hang in there bro!

Zhao Yan: Language may be a barrier...but yet..ur prayers are ever so sincere...I pray that you'll continue to shine for God and be a testimony to the many in church. Keep praying!

my bro: tho you dunno the existence of my blog..and i wun wanna disclose this blog add to you.(sorry..wanna keep this blog as confidential as i can), I know you desire to pray and grow in this area too. Well....will continue to guide youi from home...if i can.OR...you can assist in pre servie prayer. Keep praying!

To all those who were once regulars of FPM, thank you for sharing the good times with us. We really missed you and wished you were there for the last time with us. It was the best prayer meeting after so long!

To those who decided to join us after attending the prayer conference, it's encouraging to see u guys wanting to increase your prayer time and increasing your depth of prayer...too bad....it was a tad too late. I pray that God will use you all to rebuild prayer min again...

To all who reads my blog...PRAYER IS THE BACKBONE of EVERY MINISTRY and it is not just for intercessors, EVERYONE is Called to PRay but not just to Pray,but to PRAY IN FAITH.(i quote Matt who made this Prayer Min's objective,you have left a legacy.)

So keep praying!!!

i found a faster and shorter route home from VIVOCITY!!! *beams with ......* whee!i shall go vivo more often now!

All the way to the West!

I went to my other office ytd after work thinking I shld get some work done after lazing and procrastinating for too long, my heels was killing me (new pair la) and from the station to the office it takes bout 10mins to reach?so..there i was grumbling and whining from tanjong pagar to JE.

On my way there...guess who i met??
one of the LOVELIEST couple i've known since i was a young little gal ----> Meng Li and Andy!!!
Meng Li took care of me for 1 sunday school camp and I remember how much i adored her that whenever this other girl tried to snatch the attention away, i rmb how i'll try ot grab her attention again.haha....so young but already know how to fight for attention.heh...

As for Andy, I knew him when i was a young teenage gal and just joined TC. I was in his cell - Timothy and there were quite a number of hunks and babes there.Andy qas no exception.haha..i rmb how some of us will admire him from afar and exclaim how cute he looks.But looking back now, well..it was really very typical of teenage gals.

This couple have been together for almost a DECADE! and I'm so happy to hear that they're finally tying the knot next year!!

ok...back to my lousy day....after i went to the office...they told me they were closing.wah!!when I heard tt,i became even more sian. Thinki8ng of the time wasted travelling down,worried bout not having sufficient time for revision and the time taken to travel back.

What made my day worse was that when i reached tampines, i went to the interchange to buy my dinner.decided on yong tau foo.the pple serving had a very bad service and i tried not to let it affect me.when i reached my bus 'stop', the bus just left. so ended up having to wait very long, with my aching feet! Den...while waiting,i found out tt the plastic bag was leaking!!!argh!!the container wasn't tightly closed and the chopsticks had caused a small hole in the plastic bag.

Wash!!at tt time ah...i really super super super sian.Den suddenly a thought came into my mind..God maybe teaching me Perseverance. Everytime i feel like it's a bad or unlucky day, I try to link it up in a positive way and think if there's something God is trying to teach me.So after i thought about it, i just thanked God for whatever happened and I felt better immediately.

I guess everytime something bad happens, there is always something we can learn from it. I learnt not to wear new heels when i know i'm gonna do alot of walking.haha..no la..i learn to give thanks in all circumstances.

On a happier note, i just dyed my hair ALL BLACK!!woohoo...messy and troublesome.nxt time,i shall just pay more to get the hairstylists to do it. will be rebonding my hair soon! I can't wait!!

EMO

i've been feeling emo of late...was worse after i came across a particular blog...but after thinking much about it....i just feel so dumb as to why i shld get affected by it.yup.prayed bout it and simply commited it to God.

I know i'm not perfect, and I know it's time to resolve issues,but yet...it takes alot of GUTS and pride. It's easy putting down tt pride....but the guts?i seem to have lost it all.yup.the person who hated avoiding issues, the person who always wanted to talk things out,clarify matters cease to exist. I just feel that sometimes the more i try, the worse the situation becomes and hence, i give up explaining or clarifying myself and just keep quiet and avoid stuff.

Was just chatting with a gd friend of mine bout office politics and how true it is...we all live in a fallen world and we really need God's strength to overcome everything. I feel like i've been a bad testimony at work, and it's not easy getting along with pple who step on ya toes. Lord, Please help me to get along with the pple who hurt me, push me over at work and to show em the love you have for me. Being a child of yours,I pray tt you'll help me to PUSH and Press on. Amen!

I just feel like adding this in.It's so RANDOM..but...well..haha
Life IS like a BED of Roses,because even though roses are lovely, they come with a price ---> THORNS.So.. Let's pray that whereever we are, we'll fight the good fight, and continue to be strong WARRIORS for Christ!

New Week...

it's monday again!!and as usual...it's back to an environment where everyone is just play acting. sometimes,it's not the job tt makes u wanna leave...it's wat your colleagues are doing tt simply irks you. I thought to have 1 such colleague is enough,but there came this new staff who joined us a few months ago, initially, we all thought since she was way older than us,she will be more matured..but few months down the road, the true colours show up.haha...she's equally similar to the like of the political person tt most of you wld have hear me mention and it's just very disgusting looking at how these pple tryso hard to get the manager's attention,act pathetic in front of the boss but at work,are the pushovers,the one giving problems and pusing the blame to me and this other colleague.

Gosh! thank goodness i'm not here for the promotion,else,i dunno how affected i'll be.ys!everyone's just trying to so hard to be the next senior consultant (tt's the nxt level of promotion) and me?hahaha...i seem happy getting by,looking forward to pay day every mth till the day i quit. Which i'm looking forward to.

An office environment like this sure turns pple off and had i known earlier that the environment was like this,i wld rather have started off as a receptionist or something. I was conned..haha..but nevertheless,there's alot of things tt i can learn from here, so I'll just see it from an optimistic point of view tt God's teaching me something here and i'll take every opportunity to learn and experience more of him.

I praytt u'll have a blessed week and things will fine!! till the next post!! ;)

TGIF

It's Friday again!!and every working adult just LOVVVEEEEEEEEEEE the weekend!!the only time u can sleep in, wake up late and NOT Think of work.

Cancelled Prayer Meeting today cos noone was free to attend it...so I thought I'll go ahead with my plans too..and so....i hung out with my colleagues at Party World. I have to admit,they all have really good voice..i PALED in comparison but it's okie...just for the fun of it. So....here's one of the colleagues tt I hang out with at work. Meet Jolene:

I feel tt i'm looking more like my bros and my dad.oops!tt's bad...which means i'm looking uglier and looking more childish...sigh...

Steamboat@Marina

sheeshh!!!i seem to be eating alot of late....last week..it was steamboat at Marina,but I think i didn't eat alot,just an overdose of COKE.haha...and SPRITE.here are some pictures!

Meet Geraldine & Peng Li...

Yun Yu,our chef who stood up cooking almost the whole evening for us.So sweet!

tt's me!!holding my half eaten prawn..wanted to show tt off..but ah well..

the 4 of us..yun yu,joanna,geraldine & pengli

artistic pic of the crab taken by Christine. we were mountain tortoise when it came to cooking those crabs because we didn't know we had to wash and cut away some parts before it can be cooked,and so, our first crab was cooked whole with all the dirt and stuff.Thank God, none of us had food poisoning.haha

another artistic shot by Christine.Guess what?we took so many eggs but ended up not eating em at all.heh....now...who's christine??

there!!this is Christine who didn't want to take a solo pic and so got peng li to join in.

Christine thought this looked as if the guy taking it was promoting the steamboat business and so...

we got another person who does not work there to take another picture.is this pic better?

i think chris meant to take a shot of the steamboat...but looking at how hilariously joanna was laughing,i was captured in as well.

and what was i laughing about?haha..how i started off when i first started knocking on doors.the good old memories...

Well folks,tt's abt all the photos i have for steamboat.i'm still waiting for my girlfriend to send me more photos tt we took when we went to celebrate their bday....till den!

IKEA DAY!!

it was the long awaited day!!! Qiu Lin and I planned to visit IKEA long long ago and we finally went last evening, the only day I had no class for this week.


We actually spent 2 hours shopping and it wasn't even enuff but alas,the store was closing and we had to say goodbye to ikea. Here's some pics to do the talking!







2 people, but these were what we ordered.








Chiew Ling's 1st attempt. She said the pic didn't look good..and so...








we took another 1...but it looked too blur....then...








Finally!a successful attempt!i wasn't caught in the act k!








this is chiew ling!advertising for the swedish meatballs!haha..we had so much fun talking,eating and hanging out@ikea!




i strangled the ostrich and so......chiew ling said to take a pic cos I was abusing it and we decided the pic will make a good memento.it was hilarious,after we took this picture,pple who walked past us were looking and smiling(secretly laughing) at us.Gosh!can u imagine how we actually made a fool of ourselves.haha


how can we not advertise for IKEA after an evenig spent there. our final shot before we head off for home! My bad was really heavy and she was so afraid tt the bag will tear.

But for 30 cents, the paper bag is very durable! Can buy can buy!haha...

I can't wait for my nxt trip to ikea.I just love shopping there!

P/s: my parents are loyal customers of IKEA too.haha...and my dad says he goes there very often.hahaha


Alright...Tt's all folks!!

Sunday!

I felt extremely happy on Sunday!! I don't know why.Maybe cos i was wearing my new dress bought at $49.90 only and I really love it!!! Then i went to Brise De Joie with Gillian and we had such great fun posing for photos. Here's some tt we developed.

With big hipopopopopo

in the box with BIG BEAR!!

Big bear came out for a break.

heh...interesting pics eh??I had another one with a giraffe, if u wanna take such photos,ask me how and I'll tell u. ;)

Prayer Conference

At last! The Prayer Conference is over. It was...OK only. I didn't find it exactly fantastic or very God-experiencing,but it sure gave me a bigger guideline as to how to pray more and what to pray and what bible verses I can quote as I pray. There were mixed comments and feedback by most who attended, and majority liked it although I dun understand why.
His seminar is quite boring and I had to try to force myself to stay awake.I noticed tt alot of church leaders didn't atted at all.Talk bout setting good examples.Or should I say,too high and mighty,too proud and self centred that they dun need to learn from others? Hmm..
Let God Judge.

Facing the Giants

I just watched the movie....and boy was i touched by the moral of the show.

This movie talks about how everything seemd to be going downhill for the football coach and he was at his wits...until he decided to accept Christ and turn to God...out of desperation where he sees how God blesses him in every aspect he needed when he simply just trusted God.

I was so touched by it because it showed God's sovereignty and when something seems impossible, God just makes it possible. If you'll just praise him and trust Him.

It's true...the Lord has blessed me tremendously this week by showin me His divine favour at work. When all seems impossible filling out those positions,i just seem to be closing them 1 after another. If we'll just avail ourself to God. IF we just did it and simply prayed.

Why do we only turn to God when we need him? Why do we turn to him out of desperation? or when we're discouraged? or when we're in despair?

Why can't we turn to him during our good times and our bad times?If only we'll just do it,won't we see our lives turning for the better?Won't we be able to receive greater blessings?

Well my friends, I pray and hope that like me,you'll learn to walk with God thru the good and bad times. Just like you will in a relationship be it BGR or friendships. God wants to be our lover and friend as well.

Keep praying! And i sure hope top hear testimonies form you guys too!!share with me when u seem e on msn or simply tag me yeah?I love to be encouraged! cheerios!

PRE HOLIDAY...

Eve of public holidays is something working adults always look forward or are excited about because it means they get to have a day off from work. But I seem to be dreading it knowing tt I won't get to rest as much, plus there's a prayer conference tomorrow which i feel somehow obliged to go knowing that prayer is part of my life and because i'm in the prayer min and i find no excuse turning matt down, plus the seminar isn't tt expensive. Argh!!! and i even end up taking 1/2 a day off my precious leave just to attend it on friday.

I started my lessons on monday,today will be my third and I feel so tired.gosh!!! I dunno how i'm gonna survive tonight's lesson man.Yesterday's was a lil too difficult for me to pick up already. Tonight's has some calculations that we need to do,and friday i've to rush down from church to attend the class again. This is gonna go on for another week or so....

Lord, grant me the strength to push on man.

Yeah..i've not really been doing my QT because by the time I reach home, my eyes can barely open.ah...

Are u looking forward to the PH tom??well well...have a great hol! ;)

For my bestie

Read ur blog my dear, but i dun think i've the time to really talk to you on msn or meet up with you but I can totally understand how you're feeling.

Bout tt relationship with God, there was a period I felt tt way too. When loud music or jumpy music was sang during service, I wasn't as enthu as I used to be about dancing or showing how I love God and stuff. I just felt stagnant.I cldn't push myself to a higher level or to show tt enthusiasm I used to have.

Serving in church
Prolly like you, i used to serve very actively in church.from children min all the way to adult outreaches, wherever was called,i'll take it up and serve my whole heart out.

But i realised that working has caused me to stop serving tt actively and i actually suffered a burn out. Till now, I'm still not as active and enthu as I used to be. And I'm still suffering the effects of a burn out.

But I just wanted to encourage you and tell you that it's normal to feel this way.Do not think of it as you have sinned. God knows your heart. What's more important is that you still love God and you still want to draw closer to him.

When I went to church, it was more like being accountable to my parents, so that they cldn't nag at me for not turning up.Until 1 sunday when I finally found God.His presence was so real and he totally spoke to me.

I think I sound like i'm going in circles. Phil Colins once said tt many a times, we only read the bible when we FEEL like it. So if you FEEL tired,den u wun read the bible. But shld our FEELINGS play a part when we do our QT?

So i learnt tt even tho i may not FEEL enthu about dancing and stuff in church, I know I still love God and tt's what keeps me going.

It doesn't matter if you're not serving actively in church. Service to God does not mean just serving in church. There are so many contexts that can define your service to God. It can also mean serving in the marketplace, serving at home,serving in the community.

Babe, you get what i mean don't you?

So....I pray that you will ask God to give you a deeper Hunger for His Word, a desire to draw closer to Him. Don't be affected by the people around you. Rmb,it your walk with God tt matters more than anything.

Love you!hugz!

Wrong timing

argh!! I prayed that God will make me sick.....and indeed,he made me sick.but wat wrong timing!! This week,there's a ph...and i've got many work to do, plus lessons only start today. So I was thinking more of falling sick nxt week.but i had to fall sick of all times...today.and the feeling isn't exactly good because it feels so neither here nor there. Not sick till i can't get out of bed,neither am i tt well to do my work.

I bet i'm gonna be on MC tomorrow if this goes on. I can feel tt body ache.symptoms of getting a high fever...sheesh...my babes have not sent me any photos,so i can only wait till then.Am thinking of getting a laptop...but not sure wat to get yet.

ooh..and i'm gonna start a blogshop soon!exciting!with my cousiN!!whee!!!

the ROLE of a bus driver

Was just thinking about this this morning and I realised how important a bus driver's role is.

If the bus driver starts late, not only will there be a clash of 2 buses at the bus stop at the same time, but the waiting time will be extended by a few minutes. And tt few minutes can cause many commuters to be delayed at the train station and in the end, cause us workers to be more than 10mins late for work. and it's all thanks to the bus driver who was late.

This is what happened to me on a few occasions and thankfully, my company don't really bother how late you turn up for work. So it's still excusable.

But what about those who has to reach on time? They can't blame the bus driver because their bosses will nv buy their story..so....my conlusion is tt the role of a Bus driver is very important. Because the timings of the commuters is in their hands.

Agree?heh...

Evening with the BABES!

it was an evening spent with my girlfriends formerly colleagues. And time spent with time is always fun and babelicious!

We met up to celebrate kate and josephine's way advance birthday at Thai Express in Raffles City shopping centre followed by some drinks at Paul erm...dunno how to spell tt pub's name located at milenia. We started off by bitching and presenting whatever gossips we had...followed by laughing over some pple who nv fails to entertain us with it actions.and we nv fail to make fun of this person.

This group of girlfriends have shown me wat friendship means and what having fun is like.Even tho I only got to know them not too long ago....they have shown how far they will go for their girlfriends.More pictures to be uploaded soon.I really like the gifts and cards made and bought for em. Sadly,,because my photoshop wasn't working out, I cldn't do a good card for em and ended up using STUPID microsoft word which is ALWAYS out of alignment and the features are simply too dumb to be used.

We'll be having a sleepover soon and I really can't wait for it. Plus...Meeting up with Xing jia and tiffany..finally..a girls' reunion!!whee!!!

Bowling Competition @ Marina Square

I had a blasting good time last evening!!teaming up with Adrian and Serena, my team was called ALLURING....yeah....whatever tt means...we were initially eyeing for the consolation prize of geting a pack of yummilicious chips from Candy Empire but ended up getting some gift voucher from Taka...darn...i was quite disappointed although the gift voucher meant we weren't the lousier team.haha...actually for the 1st round of games, we were last and super happy abt it..den Adrian and I started the 'huat ah" thing everything he bowled and he ended up with strikes all the time.I was the one pulling my team down by always getting my ball down the 'long kang'.haha...

But nevertheless...everyone seemed to have fun albeit there was some who just didn't enjoy such activities. Some of our colleagues brought their kids to play and it was quite entertaining looking at how they tried to bowl. heh...

Hanging out with my colleagues namely adrian, jaslyn and jolene is always fun. The crazy,entertaining yet irritating bunch of colleagues!haha...

enjoy some nice funny shots!

Team Alluring and their HUAT AH pose.heh

adrian insisted on this..and so..we relented.haha

bowling builds arm muscles...try it!

tt's all folks! maybe i'll post up some grand affair photos soon.

weekend..

it was a fun yet tiring yet enjoyable weekend for me. The weekend started with a company dinner at Chijmes, the Upper club and the event was themed "A Grand Affair". There was this photographer who went round snapping our pictures and it was rather interesting because moments later, the pictures were ready and given to us as souvenirs. My colleagues and I took lotsa crazy tak glam photos and you can view them in her album in my facebook. Some of the photos will be uploaded to my friendster account soon too. Dun really wanna post any pics here now tt i know there may be some stalker around.Food was buffet style but it wasn't really tt fantastic except for the beef which was yummilicious!but when we wanted to help ourselves to a 2nd helping, the programmes started.Nothing fantastice just that they got some champion dancers from dunno where to do some cha cha,rhumba and what not. After the whole event ended, the place becaome a zouk like clubbing area for us consultants who got really high and crazy just dancing the night away. It was really fun!but it ended early and i reached home bout 11 tt night. Loved my hairdo for tt night. Go check it out yeah! ;)

The nxt day started early for me. Had amazing race @pulau ubin organised by cynthia and sze hwei from one of the young working adults cell group. It started with very bad rainy weather, thank goodness for tt cos i was really late.Almost half an hr.(this is what happens when u're out of the tampines/changi area fro more than half a decade), i suddenly felt like a pampered young princess because i've become so reliant on cabs.(and this is what happens when you start working and earn your own allowance.u just take cabs everywhere whenever u can). And so...when it was drizzling, all the station marshalls headed off to their respective stations.mine was hidden in a corner and our station was hanging out with this uncle who owns a pet boar. He is 12yrs old and he's called Jack. I shall upload his pics soon. It was rather relaxing for us, had a great time catching up with Betty and it was nice being able to get to know more new faces.Didn't really cycle much but i sure hope to be able to cycle there someday soon again.

Went home totally drained from the lack of sleep and took a nap at bout 5.30pm til about 8pm.was contemplating whether to get up or just sleep till the nxt day,but decided on getting up.I'm glad I did,because i ended up unpacking more stuff from my room. The task seems to be never ending and no matter how much clothes i unpack.there'll always be more clothes to unpack.Oh gosh!i really need to stop shopping.it's a bad habit.well...and so...the evening was spend unpacking.quite productive.

Nxt day,got up for service...went for my long awaited hair cut (had dragged the date cos of meetings which delayed my appt)and my hair finally looks presentable and neat.definitely a different feel now..but i love it! *grinz* after my hair cut,i went to do some shopping at watsons,stocking up on my beauty prdts den i went back to my old hse(marine parade) to pack sommore stuff hm to unpack. Went back with my dad,had lunch,took a short nap...and finally unpacked sommore stuff.(and i still have loads to unpack)...watched the korean dram on channel u,had dinner and den had family altar where I shared bout not being overly amibitious until we lose our focus.yupyup...Dad shared further bout new age living and post modernism which has become very real in our era.so...tt was my weekend.

Tonight...will be spent with my branch and a few other branches at MArina Square.We've got a bowling competition as part of our October welfare. It's gonna be a packed week for me once again!till the next update!

i went jogging last evening!!!it was my first attempt at trying to jog at night...didn't realise how refreshing and enjoyable the jog cld be. I definitely want to jog in the evening again.makes me feel so healthy!

work wise...it's been quite productive and I thank God, he has really answered my prayers. Well..to work at least..

in relationships wise...i know there are some trhings that He up above wants me to do but me,here...am procrastinating. lacking the guys in resolving many stuff.sigh...am still praying tt i'll pull up my socks.

But thank God..feel so blessed with the many wonderful frens who still loves me and constantly ask me out,make me feel like i'm still this person who makes pple feel like i'm great company.it's always fun hanging out with u all!! and I look forward to every outing, shopping expedition,bitching,whining, cold jokes,singing and watever is to come. Cheers to u guys!yes!every single one of u! I love u all loads! *hugz*

i realised...i actually enjoy reading my freinds' blogs.i guess as you grow older and when you just dun have the time to meet up ith every single fren,blogs just keeps u posted of how ur friend is doing. and it kinda restored 1 of my friendship with this fren tt i used to hang out with,study together when we were in secondary.those good old times.

blogs will come in handy when JOanna leaves for the mission field.in a way,i am worried bout finances,yet,i know tt there's more to this tt i can do and I really wanna be out there touching pple's lives,making a difference and stepping out of my comfort zone. It's gonna be exciting, and challenging,but i definitely am looking forward to what God has in store for my life. And I'm ready to go where he sends me. ( Ihope).haha...alright...tt's all for now..till the nxt time!

ever since i started working,i stopped hanging out too late over the weekends,stopped going out too often. yesterday,i decided to chill out and meet my bitches for karaoke....and lo and behold..my parents were making a fuss out nothing, and because i reached home at 3am,they were asleep, by the time they woke up i was already out at work, and they decided tt they will not rest the case, but sms me instead.because i do not feel tt i was in the wrong whatsoever,i didn't wanna apologise.i mean,wat's wrong with going out till so late?yes!i know u are worried,but please la...i'm not a child anymore,i'm an adult,i'm not stupid and i wun get cheated liddat.it's not as if i went out to meet some doodie guy or something. and in the end, until i APOLOGISED, did the sms stop.

i sure was irritated.having only a few hours of sleep and den having to come to work, i sure feel rather awake. i shld give myself a pat for being able to sustain man.not bad not bad.

I've finally moved house and i dunno whether i'm happy..or sad.i guess it's both. happy cos i like my new rooom but sad cos everywhere seems so far now.i've to get up 45mins earlier...sheesh...

okie...but i'm surethings will get better.

Over the weekend, there was a career fair. It wasn't tt bad after all. Initially,i thought i'll be all alone because i didn't know my colleagues from the other branches but it turned out tt everyone was so friendly and it's as if we knew each other all along.got to know some other pple from the other stalls and wat made it even more entertaining was to see many CHEAPSKATE SINGAPOREANS looking for those freebies.it's just really hilarious. I even played along with this kinda who was trying to get more of my company's pens. And we were just so amused how the tactics he came up with just to get more of the pens.haha...

The good thing bout having to be on duty for such events is that you get to have more off days in lieu...thus far,i've got..well..1 and a half days of leave.so..with my leave...i've not bout 3.5 days leave.probably will go for another short trip end of the yr..or in January just to relax and have another break before goodness knows when i'll go on vacation again.

I'm beginning to like my job,and beginning to act more senior at work.so...have been quite fun!!whee!

Updates!!

I'm so sorry for the No Updates Period!haha...been really busy with so many commitments..and now, I'm down with the FLU!!!arghhh!!and i still went to work despite feeling terrible.Bleah!!

Well..before i go on..1st and foremost, HAPPPY BIRTHDAY MATTHEW CHEN!!!! haha..how can i forget to wish someone who has the same bday as me eh? heh...

Hope you had a wonderful celebration.

This year,I'm really happy with my bday. Even tho I may not have any parties, I'm just so touched that most of my grp frens from different cliques remembered my bday and initiated a meet up, get together just for dinner and to celebrate my bdays.It's all tt matters, knowing that they nv forgot when's the day I was born.yupyup...

And the pleasant surprise Yun Hui planned for me. THANK you DARLING!!A surprise well done. I know how difficult it is to plan surprises and get pple together. and to make the person surprised. YOU DID IT!! and I appreciate the efforts and the time u spent baking a cake for me!! Love you lots bestie!!

As for the time when i've been quiet with no updates, I've been busy with Camp preparations as well as the Prayer event tt just took Place. It hasn't been easy co-organising this event and I'm really glad Matt was helping me throughout with most of the backend support done by him. *phew*..Although we expected something even better than wat took place, we believe that God has sown seeds and people are taking the challenge to pray more often. Thank God for that!

Right now,I'm just busy with dance pracs and all the stuff preparation for camp.Hasn't been easy, clashes with damnce mates..oh well.. Won't be taking up the nxt dance project,decided i need a break. So..hence..I won't be dancing for High Praise. It's kinda a relief to me.Thank God.

it's been so long since i last blogged..(wat's new eh?haha)..and there're just so many things i wanna type....but yet...can't find the time to.

Deadlines everyday...after work...at work...plus those pent up frustrations..once expressed becomes even more complicated...making one feel even more frustrated and pissed.

sheesh....hasn't been a good week..not productive either. quarrelled/argued with someone i nv wish to argue with..sigh...and i know..there certainly is a cold war looming..knowing how this person must feel rather fed up with me as well...not being able to understand my pt of view. this person..being rather biased and showing favouritism at times.sheesh...why shld i be bothered or why shld i care....sigh..

ah well...another week coming up. Pay day's round the corner!!!!woohoo!!can't wait to go shopping again!!!whee!!

okie..i'll update soon!cheerios!

oops!i realised, it's been some time since i last updated my blog. Past few weeks has just been tired,and full of tears. Yes, someone made me really really upset...kinda disapoointed.

But we talked about it, although not really resolved but well..it sure is a start.However, i doubt it'll ever be the same because of tt disappointment. it saddens me at the thought of wat happened. I appreciate the frens who've been standing by me and my decisions.but it sure hasn't been easy. But it sure was a stepping stone.God's definitely doing something, although i dunno whether it's a yes or no or wait. but i know that out of it, I'll be testifying something. Patience.yeah!i can do it!

Broke down also because of the deadlines that i've to meet not just at work, but also back home everyday. Thank God for understanding co-workers...in the ministries, because it sure has helped lightened my burden. Prayer and Praise is coming up soon and I'm really excited! God sure is moving and the key players have been such great help.

I sure hope that the excitement does not stop here and thru this, things will change!

Yup..tt's my life thus far. Hope u guys have been doing well!

It's amazing! God's been working in the lives of the frens ard me.Even tho I ain't the one who brought em to church, i know that in the way i act, talk and be a friend to em, has been a good example, a walking light and when i bump into em, I'm just so encouraged to hear tt they're either going to some church for service or attending the alpha course. I'm just so encouraged tt my prayers are not in vain.

God has answered them one by one,slowly but surely.Suddenly the politics are dispersing, the i see how God used my managers to wipe out the politics and stuff, my grandpa cos of his sickness is now more receptive to being prayed for. Frens from all over are one by one getting saved. My work has been even more productive this week despite having a busier,more tiring week. God's been my strength and I'm really thankful for His love tt nv fails to comfort me. That love tt nv stops forgiving, tt love tt has been my strength and I'm sure..tt love tt will bring me my other love.haha...

Thank God for his love!

it seems tt the people around me all seem to be going thru tough times. I'm not the only one, or was God putting in me, a burden for these pple? Is this part and parcel of wat an intercessor has to learn to be sensitive abt?

have i been snapping at this friend of mine,so much so tt i've gone overboard.hmmm...i do regret a lil, but yet,i'm tired of playing the guessing game.

oh well...today's day out with geraldine was great.i enjoyed the mani and pedi. great service wasn't it? I wanna go back there. i swear,I'm gonna start becoming some loyal customer and pay for service,not look ard for promotions. they're nice pple. U guys shld try too.they're located at roxy square!! damn class man! and cosy!!

keep praying.keep praying.cos PRAYER changes atmosphere!!

irritating shit.

if you're ever looking for a job, and the consultant asks you what kind of job you're looking for, pls DON'T EVER EVER reply "anything lor"

Stupid pple! always say this kinda shit..den when we offer them some position they'll go "er.....mmmm....." **and ask you lots of questions*** for the stupid sake of trying to turn you down... den finally... "i think..er...I'm nt interested ah"....

and sometimes,i get so pissed and irritated I'll tell em (in a fake, BUT joking manner) "u want or not??you not interested just say not interested, it's okie one.....so you interested in the position?" .... "no,not interested..sorry.." ..... "okie..if i ever have any positions that may BE of INTEREST to you, I'll give you a call again."

Most of the time? I forget what kinda job they're even interested in.haha...I dun really enjoy offering picky,undecisive, unambitious candidates. Know why? not because i'm nasty, but the chances of them falling out is super high. Because they dunno what they want, they just take up the job for the sake of getting some money first. Then after starting a week or so, chances of em resigning is super high. their excuse? "not the kinda job i want" or "it's so tough, i can't take it".

Crap.

Rightz..I hope you've learnt some erhem...advice when you go job hunting! :D

But dun worry, cos you guys are my frens, I'll nv treat you all this way. I'll go all out to help you guys get a job as much as i can.

I'm BIASED!haha...who isn't eh?heh..

Smilez!

It's weird..

I dunno if u're able to read this post as well.sheesh...time to find a new blog server man!

I realise,i'm really growing old. I hate changes, and I prefer sticking to status quo..for certain stuff. It's not like these for me in the past.Prolly cos of what I've been thru..sad to say, we just become adults someday.

Yes!Checked out some stuff today, and I'm glad to say,I've learnt to let go of some friendships i once held so dearly, yet hurt them because i was impulsive,said the wrong stuff and killed the friendships. I realise, no matter how many times if I apologise, the trust won't be there, the scars cannot be healed, and it'll no longer be the same. But it's this hurt, that has taught me alot, changed me for the better, be grateful, and cherish the blessings God has given me.

Although I had to pay a HUGE lesson for this, i guess it's all worth it. I've lost my leadership skills as well tho. Will trust tt when God needs me to lead someday, it'll naturally come back to me.

does my post always sound sad? haha...I can't help it, i blog only when I'm down.When I'm happy, i don't seem to get the opportunity to use the com to blog.

But yes!there've been good times too! Evenings after work spent catching up with friends from pri/sec sch, old workplaces has just been so memorable.

Fel, thanks for being there! I really pray that our friendship will one day be as close as we used to be back in the good ol days. Days when our families knew each other, days when we cld just hang out at each other's places, days spent chatting over the phone for hours. Thank you for not forgetting this friendship that we share. This yr marks 15yrs of our friendship!!wow!! a decade and a half!!!Thks for always trying to arrangea date to meet up. Appreciate all your efforts.We'll definitely make this friendship work out! and I want you as one of my Jie Meis when I DO get married ok?

Geraldine, only got to know you in July 2006, yet it feels like we've been friends for yrs. Thk you for listening to me all da time, talk bout erhem, 'gossipping' bout erhem erhem and all, for the days spent shopping, enjoying some 'tai-tai' life, and just being a gr8 fren!I miss those days while we were still looking for a job.It was fun wasn't it? we'll meet up soon too yeah? *hugz**

Yun Hui, My anime!!!haha...u're someone i got to only like for months!but the chemistry just sparked liddat! I'm glad God gave me a friend like you. It really helped me get out of the 'depression' I was in, and you really brought sunshine back into my life!! The advices given to me...is so different and I simply enjoy telling you all the good news too! U're truly a God-sent gift! Till death do us apart!haha...

Shu Min, you're not forgotten!! Although the times we spend talking to each other is so much lesser than before, I appreciate the fact that you still asked me along for tt bintan trip! It was gr8 fun hanging out and catching up!! Thanks also, for reading my blog, and giving me encouragement. To let me know that despite the distant, you nv forgot me, and you nv stopped reading bout how I'm doing. I really appreciate it! Let's go shopping someday again! Miss you babe!

yes..i've mentioned only the ladies..guys?ah well...they dun read my blog anyway...but..haha...wun write such 'ro ma' stuff for em also.hehe...

MATTHEW CHEN!! the one in UK, haiyo, it's been some time since i last saw u on MSN, can u pls come back to the IT world??i got so much to tell you! Till then!!

Thanks pple for reading the really long post, I love all of you and I appreciate the times you've remembered me in ya prayers.

Take care all!

Haf you ever played a game called POLITICS?

Oh my...I have, and it sure is an eye opener as to how bad things can go when your office is just a bunch of ladies.

Well..i try to avoid it at all means. And carrying the Love that God has given to me, I just keep quiet and not get involved.Of cos,it's inevitable.only joined the company for less den 2mths, just by sitting quietly at my desk,minding my own business, i can still get backstabbed.interesting eh?it's like so amazing la.

Realy thank God for His love which have changed me. The old Joanna wld haf thought of all means and ways to get back at the person. But what I've learnt is that even if i do know who's talking behind my back,I choose to be ignorant and forget abt it. And shld anyone say me like sarcastically, (amazingly, I've been quite blur when pple talk sarcastically)..so..i'm blur.can't do anything.

I believe that one day,with my sincerity and God's strength, pple will see the difference in me. I still wanna make a big difference in my office. Praying real hard.

Tt's all for now,shall update more tom.Time for bed!

Cheerios!

The blog, is like my thoughts. The blog, is where i know i can just type everything out, and not worry bout hurting or insulting anyone. Pple who read, i know, are people who loves me and will not judge me just cos of what i've typed. and i really aprreciate you all. thk u! :)

After typing everything out last night, I really felt alot better and seeing the pple who makes me smile, just made the day even sweeter. Thank God. No longer tt weary. But i pray that I'll keep running and not give up.


Thank God for the strength.Praying also that I'll do everything with all my heart and do it the best tt i can do. No screw ups,no carelessness, no last minute submissions etc. Pray pray pray!

I've been feeling frustrated, irritated at the thought of living under the same roof as my step mum.It's getting on my nerves and i can't tolerate it any longer. Thoughts of moving out seems to be calling to me.But yet, my financial status doesn't allow me to at the moment.

It hasn't been easy.going to a place called church isn't helping either. Christians,are supposed to be Christ Like.But all i see when i go to church,are pple putting on a mask, pple staying within their comfort zone(just happy to be talking to their cliques), diplomatic pple who tries to do things right so as to avoid quarrels,arguments and whatever causes unhappiness. JUDGEMENTAL pple.

It saddens me to be in a place where I'm expected to edify,encourage and love pple like Jesus.Where is tt kinda true love? it seems, i can't seem to click with many pple in church nowadays. Whatever happen to those days when everyone will just ask everyone out? Whatever happened to the days when we do not consider ourselves 'cooler, more fun,popular' den others? Whatever happens to the "join us?sure! anyone's welcome!" attitude?

Gone are the good old days. And i no longer see myself trying to be nice to everyone,i no longer do things just to get to know someone better. What's the point? I end up being the lonely, suffering one. PPle look at one another with another eye, and i've been rather sensitive on the issue of one graduating with a degree.

It gets on my nerves, and i get rather upset when pple talk bout Uni. Like wat the...., how bout me starting a conversation on work,work ethics and stuff tt u've not been thru?it just makes one feel stupid, makes one feel so out of place and it's as if pple are talking bout it on purpose. Yes!it is getting to me. I feel so dumb, i feel so outcast..in a place where i used to be able to call it home.

Thoughts of changing church has occurred to me. But i know my work in this church is not over. When Lord? I dunno...but when the opportunity comes, will I hesitate to go? sigh..

It sure is a love-hate relationship. I still have really good frens who gave me a 2nd chance..but yet...

I'm praying tt i won't let my emotions get the worst out of me.
I miss my mum.i do.what would my life be like if she's still ard?
WHy did God take her away?I'm still looking for tt answer..