I dun wanna think about it.....but my heart just feels so down everytime i think abt it. Not the least bit of effort.....and the sentence that hurt me so much. This is how much you treasure everything....when will you finally take the initiative?

Is the C and your B all tt matters to u? It sure seems like it's just numbers. After putting in so much effort into doing so much...I've learnt that I shld not even bother. All I am to you is prolly just your manager and secretary. You're just a pathetic boy who'll nv grow up.Not career minded but expects to be rich....want to buy something you cannot afford and I have to suffer with you.

I don't know..but i really dun think we're meant to be. I really want a man after God's heart....but all the excuses u give in not going with me.....just pains me so much. Do i really want to cling onto it? And at the end of that day, what if it does not happen?

give in to her give in to her. the whole world has to give in to her.

1 selfish bitch who thinks nothing but for herself. while the whole world suffers in silence...she enjoys by demanding things go her way.

Her parents play favouritism and pays for almost everything for her....but what they dun appreciate is the lil things their son does.

Vday? yeah.....i'm such a loser....spending time pathetically with my lappie and tv at home. What difference does it make if i'm single or attached? I'll nv be all smiles..Planned surprises? it all seems to go wrong whenever u do something eh?

When will i ever feel something without feeling disappointing.

By giving in...it doesn't build up any relationships. It's abt talking things out....rationally and speaking with clarity. You'll nv learn. So tiring.why am i like a mother?

i like to be the best....but i'm nv the best...
i like to be appreciated....but u nv say thanks...
i like to be recognised....but u always bring me down...
i like to be noticed....but tt nv seems to be the case...

what exactly am i to u?

and u said....CNY is not about you or me....it's about FAMILY.it's all bullshit!

It's more about what time your frens call you to GAMBLE.

Day 1 gamble....day 2 gamble sommore...day 3..go boss place but still can go home, change and go gambling again. With a pathetic excuse. Seriously! Why don't you use sometime looking at investments or thinking of ways to upgrade your skills to something more meaningful.

All you think about is gamble gamble gamble. Even ur gf is 2nd to none. I might as well change my status to single everytime it's CNY.

FUCK U seriously!

Neglected this space...as always. heh..

But it seems to be the place where I can just rant and pen out my feelings. It's CNY...supposed to be a brand new start. But what was supposed to be a happy and exciting occasion turned out to be one that left me crying myself to sleep every nite.

It was a tough decision.....one tt wld prolly caused me to go on a solo trip this weekend. Kinda scared...but there's no point calling another person cos I'll prolly not be in the mood to do anything after what just happened. Can't believe tt u'll leave me walking back all myself....without even trying to catch up with me....and continued walking with ur frens. Heartless asshole.

I guess it's time to move on....back to career....back to where I first started.Thanks for the good and bad memories.I'll take it on from here...