The blog, is like my thoughts. The blog, is where i know i can just type everything out, and not worry bout hurting or insulting anyone. Pple who read, i know, are people who loves me and will not judge me just cos of what i've typed. and i really aprreciate you all. thk u! :)
After typing everything out last night, I really felt alot better and seeing the pple who makes me smile, just made the day even sweeter. Thank God. No longer tt weary. But i pray that I'll keep running and not give up.
Thank God for the strength.Praying also that I'll do everything with all my heart and do it the best tt i can do. No screw ups,no carelessness, no last minute submissions etc. Pray pray pray!
I've been feeling frustrated, irritated at the thought of living under the same roof as my step mum.It's getting on my nerves and i can't tolerate it any longer. Thoughts of moving out seems to be calling to me.But yet, my financial status doesn't allow me to at the moment.
It hasn't been easy.going to a place called church isn't helping either. Christians,are supposed to be Christ Like.But all i see when i go to church,are pple putting on a mask, pple staying within their comfort zone(just happy to be talking to their cliques), diplomatic pple who tries to do things right so as to avoid quarrels,arguments and whatever causes unhappiness. JUDGEMENTAL pple.
It saddens me to be in a place where I'm expected to edify,encourage and love pple like Jesus.Where is tt kinda true love? it seems, i can't seem to click with many pple in church nowadays. Whatever happen to those days when everyone will just ask everyone out? Whatever happened to the days when we do not consider ourselves 'cooler, more fun,popular' den others? Whatever happens to the "join us?sure! anyone's welcome!" attitude?
Gone are the good old days. And i no longer see myself trying to be nice to everyone,i no longer do things just to get to know someone better. What's the point? I end up being the lonely, suffering one. PPle look at one another with another eye, and i've been rather sensitive on the issue of one graduating with a degree.
It gets on my nerves, and i get rather upset when pple talk bout Uni. Like wat the...., how bout me starting a conversation on work,work ethics and stuff tt u've not been thru?it just makes one feel stupid, makes one feel so out of place and it's as if pple are talking bout it on purpose. Yes!it is getting to me. I feel so dumb, i feel so outcast..in a place where i used to be able to call it home.
Thoughts of changing church has occurred to me. But i know my work in this church is not over. When Lord? I dunno...but when the opportunity comes, will I hesitate to go? sigh..
It sure is a love-hate relationship. I still have really good frens who gave me a 2nd chance..but yet...
I'm praying tt i won't let my emotions get the worst out of me.
I miss my mum.i do.what would my life be like if she's still ard?
WHy did God take her away?I'm still looking for tt answer..
It hasn't been easy.going to a place called church isn't helping either. Christians,are supposed to be Christ Like.But all i see when i go to church,are pple putting on a mask, pple staying within their comfort zone(just happy to be talking to their cliques), diplomatic pple who tries to do things right so as to avoid quarrels,arguments and whatever causes unhappiness. JUDGEMENTAL pple.
It saddens me to be in a place where I'm expected to edify,encourage and love pple like Jesus.Where is tt kinda true love? it seems, i can't seem to click with many pple in church nowadays. Whatever happen to those days when everyone will just ask everyone out? Whatever happened to the days when we do not consider ourselves 'cooler, more fun,popular' den others? Whatever happens to the "join us?sure! anyone's welcome!" attitude?
Gone are the good old days. And i no longer see myself trying to be nice to everyone,i no longer do things just to get to know someone better. What's the point? I end up being the lonely, suffering one. PPle look at one another with another eye, and i've been rather sensitive on the issue of one graduating with a degree.
It gets on my nerves, and i get rather upset when pple talk bout Uni. Like wat the...., how bout me starting a conversation on work,work ethics and stuff tt u've not been thru?it just makes one feel stupid, makes one feel so out of place and it's as if pple are talking bout it on purpose. Yes!it is getting to me. I feel so dumb, i feel so outcast..in a place where i used to be able to call it home.
Thoughts of changing church has occurred to me. But i know my work in this church is not over. When Lord? I dunno...but when the opportunity comes, will I hesitate to go? sigh..
It sure is a love-hate relationship. I still have really good frens who gave me a 2nd chance..but yet...
I'm praying tt i won't let my emotions get the worst out of me.
I miss my mum.i do.what would my life be like if she's still ard?
WHy did God take her away?I'm still looking for tt answer..
YOU PUT A SMILE ON MY FACE!!! it's so nice.....everything's going great! Yun Hui!! Love you lots!!thanks for ur ears all the time!! The friendship we share!! You're truly God sent!! love ya dearest!
to all my other friends out there whom i've not really spoken to or kept in touch with, I love you all loads and i hope to catch up with u guys soon!! *hugz*
to all my other friends out there whom i've not really spoken to or kept in touch with, I love you all loads and i hope to catch up with u guys soon!! *hugz*
wah!!!didn't know i'm tt tired and busy to blog for so long...
work has been very challenging...senior is becoming very unethical...but i find strength in the Lord..strength to forgive and not get involved in all the politics. I know..I've the favour of God.
I really enjoy my work. There's so much satisfaction.
BEsides work,been very involved in church..i realised...i nv seem to be free..sheesh....too much commitments in church is just making me very tired,weary,and burnt out.But it's thru times like this, tt i go to God..and i learn to rest in His presence.I'm learning to have a bit of Martha..and more of Mary.Ain't easy..because i just can't seem to bring myself to say no to whatever pple ask me to do.sigh...God..pls teach me how to turn down.
Vday's coming..sad to say...i'll be celebrating with a bunch of singles.this yr....it's nicer..cos i've got dates!!!wah!!!no guy has ever asked me out on Vday before..so..i feel complimented.heh...but den again...i do not want to give em wrong signlas..so..i shall not go out with any guy liddat.
CNY's coming too...all i'm looking forward to...is therest i'm gonna get.While everyone start work on the 4th day..i get an extra day off..just tt i dun get paid.well..i dun mind.cos i get to rest.alright..not really in the mood to type le...shall end here.when i'm more energetic,i shall write with more feelings yeah?
Will love to know how u guys are doing,chat with me whenever u see me on msn ok??take care my dearest frens!!
work has been very challenging...senior is becoming very unethical...but i find strength in the Lord..strength to forgive and not get involved in all the politics. I know..I've the favour of God.
I really enjoy my work. There's so much satisfaction.
BEsides work,been very involved in church..i realised...i nv seem to be free..sheesh....too much commitments in church is just making me very tired,weary,and burnt out.But it's thru times like this, tt i go to God..and i learn to rest in His presence.I'm learning to have a bit of Martha..and more of Mary.Ain't easy..because i just can't seem to bring myself to say no to whatever pple ask me to do.sigh...God..pls teach me how to turn down.
Vday's coming..sad to say...i'll be celebrating with a bunch of singles.this yr....it's nicer..cos i've got dates!!!wah!!!no guy has ever asked me out on Vday before..so..i feel complimented.heh...but den again...i do not want to give em wrong signlas..so..i shall not go out with any guy liddat.
CNY's coming too...all i'm looking forward to...is therest i'm gonna get.While everyone start work on the 4th day..i get an extra day off..just tt i dun get paid.well..i dun mind.cos i get to rest.alright..not really in the mood to type le...shall end here.when i'm more energetic,i shall write with more feelings yeah?
Will love to know how u guys are doing,chat with me whenever u see me on msn ok??take care my dearest frens!!
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