Every year,ever since i got to know this good friend of mine, I make sure i dun forget to wish him.And this year is no exception. Just tt it's 1 day earlier cos i dun think i'll have much time to use the com tom. Den again..is UK always a day later? Nvm la...earlier better den late.
So....here's wishing you a BLESSED BIRTHDAY Matthew Chen!!
Thanks for being such a great friend all these years...listening to me talk bout him....giving me advise and those support and encouragement....u've been a blessing!
Pls come online more often!it's been so long since i last chatted with you and well...not much updates now also la....haha..shall talk to u soon and enjoy this special day ok!!I'll be enjoying mine. *winks*
Cheers!!
SUN-day
was a great day ytd...
a particular someone said i reminded her of my mum and tt i had wat mum had. She was initially hesistant bout bringing this up as her hubby said it was a sensitive issue. But upon hearing her comment I exclaim with joy how happy i am everytime someone say i resembled my mum or tt i had the attributes of what mum had. It's nice to know tt mum is really being thought of after so long. She still puts a smile on my face and she's the reason why i can always smile.
Den after dance....this person came up to me...sounding really serious..i tot i had offended him or something...in a way..i prolly did...but it turned out well. He actually apologised to me for judging me and for being 'cold' towards me because of the misconception he had.
it taught me alot and it was more of an encouragement rather than anything because this was what happened.
This guy used to look up to me when we were younger (and tt's what e claims) and i remember how everytime he saw me in sch he'll approach me just to say hi and stuff. den as we grew up...i didn't had a very good impression of him over an incident and i guess it was the same for him.so for a period of time,i gave him the cold shoulders as he did the same. Then I told myself i was eing childish and even if he DOES dislike me,I shldn't act the same way. So..slowly,i just told myself...pple can hate me...but i'll still try to be nice and smile at the person..and tt's what i did.
So the encouraging part is tt when I did it, resentment is broken, walls are broken down,friendship is reconciled. I told him tt it's alright and we shld all move forward.It sure takes alot of guts to apologise.I know how tt feels.but it sure hurts when u've apologised but ur frens are still unforgiving.
I pray for reconciliation. I'm still waiting for tt miracle to happen.I love and miss them.But I know it's all in God's hand.tt 1 day will come...I'm Sure.
a particular someone said i reminded her of my mum and tt i had wat mum had. She was initially hesistant bout bringing this up as her hubby said it was a sensitive issue. But upon hearing her comment I exclaim with joy how happy i am everytime someone say i resembled my mum or tt i had the attributes of what mum had. It's nice to know tt mum is really being thought of after so long. She still puts a smile on my face and she's the reason why i can always smile.
Den after dance....this person came up to me...sounding really serious..i tot i had offended him or something...in a way..i prolly did...but it turned out well. He actually apologised to me for judging me and for being 'cold' towards me because of the misconception he had.
it taught me alot and it was more of an encouragement rather than anything because this was what happened.
This guy used to look up to me when we were younger (and tt's what e claims) and i remember how everytime he saw me in sch he'll approach me just to say hi and stuff. den as we grew up...i didn't had a very good impression of him over an incident and i guess it was the same for him.so for a period of time,i gave him the cold shoulders as he did the same. Then I told myself i was eing childish and even if he DOES dislike me,I shldn't act the same way. So..slowly,i just told myself...pple can hate me...but i'll still try to be nice and smile at the person..and tt's what i did.
So the encouraging part is tt when I did it, resentment is broken, walls are broken down,friendship is reconciled. I told him tt it's alright and we shld all move forward.It sure takes alot of guts to apologise.I know how tt feels.but it sure hurts when u've apologised but ur frens are still unforgiving.
I pray for reconciliation. I'm still waiting for tt miracle to happen.I love and miss them.But I know it's all in God's hand.tt 1 day will come...I'm Sure.
Short and Sweet
and so....it ended....amicably?
for those of you who know....yes...i broke up with him. for thos e who dunno....well...nw u know.
decided tt it was the best for both of us...and i hope u feel alright.
once again...i've treated this as a game.
Love is a complex thing...the person who likes you...may nt be the one u truly love....but the one you found perfect and truly love....just simply choose to ignore u and treat you as a friend.
I'm glad.really glad to be single. many try so hard to find a partner....hoping for those 'romantic' moments...but at this point of time...i know i'm not ready for commitments even if the perfect one comes along.
I'm enjoying singlehood.really.enjoying those solitary moments...nights out with my pals...dates with the guys...not having to feel guilty or accountable to anyone.just me.and the holy ones will prolly say and God. yes. God..to a certain extend,i'm accountable to Him too.
Thought it wld be easy just letting go liddat...didn't expect myself to actually have some after effects..i'll be fine! :)
for those of you who know....yes...i broke up with him. for thos e who dunno....well...nw u know.
decided tt it was the best for both of us...and i hope u feel alright.
once again...i've treated this as a game.
Love is a complex thing...the person who likes you...may nt be the one u truly love....but the one you found perfect and truly love....just simply choose to ignore u and treat you as a friend.
I'm glad.really glad to be single. many try so hard to find a partner....hoping for those 'romantic' moments...but at this point of time...i know i'm not ready for commitments even if the perfect one comes along.
I'm enjoying singlehood.really.enjoying those solitary moments...nights out with my pals...dates with the guys...not having to feel guilty or accountable to anyone.just me.and the holy ones will prolly say and God. yes. God..to a certain extend,i'm accountable to Him too.
Thought it wld be easy just letting go liddat...didn't expect myself to actually have some after effects..i'll be fine! :)
Backdated photos...
Lots of backdated photos to upload...I shall...post up my post chalet pictures...
Met the guys and Yvonne for breakfast at 9am at Bedok Interchange before heading to Sheng Shion for some Marketing
The chalet left us with many lessons learnt...it was an angry yet fun and memorable and enjoyable one.
Met the guys and Yvonne for breakfast at 9am at Bedok Interchange before heading to Sheng Shion for some Marketing
Left them around 11+ to visit granddad at the hospital before joining back them with the preparations at around 2pm.
After settling down....we went to cycle,grab some light refreshments at Lagoon hawker...before returning to prepare the BBQ while urs truly cycled to church to collect something from bro and grace,before returning to prepare for a jog.
Some of the food we had....just some..
Holiday Plans...
Yes!!
My holiday plans are all right on track!!!
Thank God for providing enough leave...really wonder how everything just fits in....and I can even take leave on my bday.
So...Plans for the yr are as follows:
March: Batam Trip
May: Bangkok Trip with the partners and SIL
June: Genting Awana with the family
July: HK trip with Dancers
December: Philippines with B&R
Really thank God for providing for my expenses too.Was really worried that I may not have enuff..but His grace is enough and he is my Jehovah Jireh!!
Can't wait for all these to happen!
My holiday plans are all right on track!!!
Thank God for providing enough leave...really wonder how everything just fits in....and I can even take leave on my bday.
So...Plans for the yr are as follows:
March: Batam Trip
May: Bangkok Trip with the partners and SIL
June: Genting Awana with the family
July: HK trip with Dancers
December: Philippines with B&R
Really thank God for providing for my expenses too.Was really worried that I may not have enuff..but His grace is enough and he is my Jehovah Jireh!!
Can't wait for all these to happen!
Mother's Day
and so....it was Happy Mother's Day yesterday..
while many are out celebrating over dinner and all....most christians rather give up nice comfy dinner to attend GDOP.how did GDOP go? i dunno...
cos i didn't attend....GDOP brought back many memories..
when Matt was ard..we wld sacrifice our sleep to pray together...praying for the pple...for the church and for everyone...and because most of my frens in church ain't prayer enthusiasts...i didn't wanna attend this event alone...hence....my decision to stay at home...and rest...
cldn't take a nap....and ended up chatting with frens online...
started thinknig alot...
and decided that i shld dedicate this post to my most beloved one and only...
you left us 14years ago...according to God's will...
although it was a short 9 years being ur daughter,
the love and care you showered on me remains etched on my mind.
I can still remember those days when you will tie my hair before I go to school and everyday will be a different hairstyle. You made me look pretty...even with those toot looking specs..and even tho i was tt chubby lookiing girl...you simply made me adorable and cute...
not forgetting those pretty dresses that you sewed and made for me...although i wun agree that it was trendy or fashionable,it was MADE with Love.
The pillows and bolsters tt we sleep on and hugged to sleep....we cld feel ur love and hardwork making them.those were priceless! I remember how i used to have this small little pillow that I've to carry with me everywhere I go...and even when it had a 'personal smell' I simply wldn't allow you to replace it with a new one. But u knew u had to throw away the old as it was unhygenic..
Mummy...how can i forget those cross stitches tt you sewed? it's the only love left behind tt can remind me of you...
I remember how we were all so close as a family...gatherings with relatives were made possible only because of u...you nv compared me to anyone..and u loved us all the same...whether we're smart,dumb,or anything...you nv compared...
I miss your cooking,i miss your self made pillows, bolsters and dresses....i miss your cross stitches and crochets...
i miss having you style my hair..
I miss seeing a mummy tt is dearly loved...you were so friendly...to all our neighbours and pple ard...they cld sense your friendliness,sincerity and love.
You're the best mother I ever had and no matter what...nobody can replace you in my heart.And i'm sure you're fondly remembered by those whose hearts you have touched.
Although you're gone and can nv come back to us...i'll always be missing you.
Happy Mother's Day mummy!
I love you and I hope you're very very happy in Heaven.
With love,
Your daughter..
while many are out celebrating over dinner and all....most christians rather give up nice comfy dinner to attend GDOP.how did GDOP go? i dunno...
cos i didn't attend....GDOP brought back many memories..
when Matt was ard..we wld sacrifice our sleep to pray together...praying for the pple...for the church and for everyone...and because most of my frens in church ain't prayer enthusiasts...i didn't wanna attend this event alone...hence....my decision to stay at home...and rest...
cldn't take a nap....and ended up chatting with frens online...
started thinknig alot...
and decided that i shld dedicate this post to my most beloved one and only...
you left us 14years ago...according to God's will...
although it was a short 9 years being ur daughter,
the love and care you showered on me remains etched on my mind.
I can still remember those days when you will tie my hair before I go to school and everyday will be a different hairstyle. You made me look pretty...even with those toot looking specs..and even tho i was tt chubby lookiing girl...you simply made me adorable and cute...
not forgetting those pretty dresses that you sewed and made for me...although i wun agree that it was trendy or fashionable,it was MADE with Love.
The pillows and bolsters tt we sleep on and hugged to sleep....we cld feel ur love and hardwork making them.those were priceless! I remember how i used to have this small little pillow that I've to carry with me everywhere I go...and even when it had a 'personal smell' I simply wldn't allow you to replace it with a new one. But u knew u had to throw away the old as it was unhygenic..
Mummy...how can i forget those cross stitches tt you sewed? it's the only love left behind tt can remind me of you...
I remember how we were all so close as a family...gatherings with relatives were made possible only because of u...you nv compared me to anyone..and u loved us all the same...whether we're smart,dumb,or anything...you nv compared...
I miss your cooking,i miss your self made pillows, bolsters and dresses....i miss your cross stitches and crochets...
i miss having you style my hair..
I miss seeing a mummy tt is dearly loved...you were so friendly...to all our neighbours and pple ard...they cld sense your friendliness,sincerity and love.
You're the best mother I ever had and no matter what...nobody can replace you in my heart.And i'm sure you're fondly remembered by those whose hearts you have touched.
Although you're gone and can nv come back to us...i'll always be missing you.
Happy Mother's Day mummy!
I love you and I hope you're very very happy in Heaven.
With love,
Your daughter..
Tiring but fun week...
It's been a really interesting week for me..
ok...hard disk is officially declared DEAD and it means we have to get a new system....now...we either have to pay to retrieve our data..or trust my good fren to help retrieve it for us first.I'm praying fren can do it..save us the money...
Alright.....the week has been a fun and interesting one...i went viewing with my fren on wednesday and thursday..and because he's a chiongster...he hardly sleeps early....and because we didn't have dinner before viewing...we went to eat after tt....
wednesday: went to jln besar (ard there) for yummy yong tau foo...before he decided tt he wanted to go Mustafa....and u know what?? he went there cos he wanted to get a laser pointer...and when i asked him what did he want it for he say cos he has nv own one in his life.DOTZ....so had to get one...haha..wat a reason man.but it was my first time there..so it was worth accompanying him.
thursday: viewing again....this time...this guy....drove the tenants off to their destination...and left me..and 2 other frens waiting.again...they wanted to eat...so we went to geylang for bak chor mee...before going to a dessert shop tt the guys often frequented.and because joanna has nv been in a red light district (tt's pretty obvious...most of us nv been ard tt area)...they decided to 'show' me ard tt area.of cos..we were in the car.haha..and they were telling me which area cost how much...where the free lancers are...and where the top graders hung out.it was quite an eye opener for me...and i felt realy sad for these gals.my frens too.....we all agreed tt they were brought up in the wrong part of the world...and had they been born in another country..they prolly wldn't have to do this...and lead a better life..
ok....so...cos i was out these 2 night..i slept at like 1am,went to work the next day.amazing..i survived!whee!!
Friday: after cell...supposed to go home early..but ended up staying in peter and grace's shop watching Ah Long Pte Ltd. was super funny...so no regrets....slept at like 3am..got up at 7 to go to work.
Sat: went to work....yoga at 3.15....reached home at 7, ate dinner,mopped the floor..and totally conked out at 8pm...till sunday..woke up at 9am...prepare for service.
surprisingly..i'm still awake now...
and I can't wait..for BKK trip!!
ok...hard disk is officially declared DEAD and it means we have to get a new system....now...we either have to pay to retrieve our data..or trust my good fren to help retrieve it for us first.I'm praying fren can do it..save us the money...
Alright.....the week has been a fun and interesting one...i went viewing with my fren on wednesday and thursday..and because he's a chiongster...he hardly sleeps early....and because we didn't have dinner before viewing...we went to eat after tt....
wednesday: went to jln besar (ard there) for yummy yong tau foo...before he decided tt he wanted to go Mustafa....and u know what?? he went there cos he wanted to get a laser pointer...and when i asked him what did he want it for he say cos he has nv own one in his life.DOTZ....so had to get one...haha..wat a reason man.but it was my first time there..so it was worth accompanying him.
thursday: viewing again....this time...this guy....drove the tenants off to their destination...and left me..and 2 other frens waiting.again...they wanted to eat...so we went to geylang for bak chor mee...before going to a dessert shop tt the guys often frequented.and because joanna has nv been in a red light district (tt's pretty obvious...most of us nv been ard tt area)...they decided to 'show' me ard tt area.of cos..we were in the car.haha..and they were telling me which area cost how much...where the free lancers are...and where the top graders hung out.it was quite an eye opener for me...and i felt realy sad for these gals.my frens too.....we all agreed tt they were brought up in the wrong part of the world...and had they been born in another country..they prolly wldn't have to do this...and lead a better life..
ok....so...cos i was out these 2 night..i slept at like 1am,went to work the next day.amazing..i survived!whee!!
Friday: after cell...supposed to go home early..but ended up staying in peter and grace's shop watching Ah Long Pte Ltd. was super funny...so no regrets....slept at like 3am..got up at 7 to go to work.
Sat: went to work....yoga at 3.15....reached home at 7, ate dinner,mopped the floor..and totally conked out at 8pm...till sunday..woke up at 9am...prepare for service.
surprisingly..i'm still awake now...
and I can't wait..for BKK trip!!
1 Cor 13
If I speak in tongues of men and of angels but have not love, I am only a resounding gong and a clanging cymbal.
If I have the gift of prophesies and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am NOTHING.
If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain NOTHING.
Love is....
Patient
Kind
It does not Envy
Does not Boast
It is not Proud
It is not Rude
Not Self Seeking
Not easily Angered
It keeps NO record of Wrongs
Love....
does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
Love always...
Protects...trusts,hope and perseveres.
Love NEVER....fails...
But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge,it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part,
BUT when perfection comes...
the imperfect disappears....
When I was a child, I talked like a child, i thought like a child, i reasoned like a child.
When I became man,I put ALL childish ways behind me.
Now...we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully,even as I am fully known.
And now....these 3 remain:
FAITH, HOPE and LOVE.
but the GREATEST of these is...
LOVE.
and it's nv......being a perfect person...it's nv being nice all the time...it's nv easy pleasing everybody...it's nv easy accepting pple the way they are...it's nv easy working together...it's nv easy resolving conflicts....BUT....
God's strength is made perfect...when I am weak.and I will continue to learn to rely on His grace and strength.
If I have the gift of prophesies and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am NOTHING.
If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain NOTHING.
Love is....
Patient
Kind
It does not Envy
Does not Boast
It is not Proud
It is not Rude
Not Self Seeking
Not easily Angered
It keeps NO record of Wrongs
Love....
does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
Love always...
Protects...trusts,hope and perseveres.
Love NEVER....fails...
But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge,it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part,
BUT when perfection comes...
the imperfect disappears....
When I was a child, I talked like a child, i thought like a child, i reasoned like a child.
When I became man,I put ALL childish ways behind me.
Now...we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully,even as I am fully known.
And now....these 3 remain:
FAITH, HOPE and LOVE.
but the GREATEST of these is...
LOVE.
and it's nv......being a perfect person...it's nv being nice all the time...it's nv easy pleasing everybody...it's nv easy accepting pple the way they are...it's nv easy working together...it's nv easy resolving conflicts....BUT....
God's strength is made perfect...when I am weak.and I will continue to learn to rely on His grace and strength.
weekend...
i've got no mood to work!!!plus...i'm having a bad headache now...so..i shall take some time off to blog bout my PH.
Eve of PH,we had pur 1st cell grp outing!! Thanks to Joanna who refuse to stay home on an eve and suggested to 2 of my cell mates bout hanging out and they thought it'll be nice getting the members to join in too.hence....the cell outing! it was fun....very fun...the ladies suddenly started acting like they were my age and we were talking in an 'atas' and bimbotic manner.heh....we had steamboat at marina square before heading off to cityhall's starbucks to chill out. a few of em had conked out by den...and left like at 11? den it was down to 4 of us -->Grace, Peter, Myself and this other guy..chee yong i think.
So the guys started talking bout guyish stuff like china history and gadgets and stuff and the ladies went on talking bout girlish stuff...heh...ya...i'm glad i managed to share with Grace bout something i wanted to be accountable to.it was a lovely evening...
i reached home bout 2...slept at bout 3.30 and woke up at like 11 the following day?
den went to meet my MDIS classmates for lunch..shall upload pictures when jo sends to me.we shopped ard town for awhile before i headed off to meet another fren.lovely.tt time spent together. i look forward to more time spent on Sunday. *Grinz*
so so.....now..here i am....in the office...waiting for time to knock off before heading off for cell.can't wait! nt sure where we're gonna chill later...but i'm definitely gonna nua at home tom.
on a sidenote....it was nice chatting with you today...you'll always have a special place in my heart. :)
Eve of PH,we had pur 1st cell grp outing!! Thanks to Joanna who refuse to stay home on an eve and suggested to 2 of my cell mates bout hanging out and they thought it'll be nice getting the members to join in too.hence....the cell outing! it was fun....very fun...the ladies suddenly started acting like they were my age and we were talking in an 'atas' and bimbotic manner.heh....we had steamboat at marina square before heading off to cityhall's starbucks to chill out. a few of em had conked out by den...and left like at 11? den it was down to 4 of us -->Grace, Peter, Myself and this other guy..chee yong i think.
So the guys started talking bout guyish stuff like china history and gadgets and stuff and the ladies went on talking bout girlish stuff...heh...ya...i'm glad i managed to share with Grace bout something i wanted to be accountable to.it was a lovely evening...
i reached home bout 2...slept at bout 3.30 and woke up at like 11 the following day?
den went to meet my MDIS classmates for lunch..shall upload pictures when jo sends to me.we shopped ard town for awhile before i headed off to meet another fren.lovely.tt time spent together. i look forward to more time spent on Sunday. *Grinz*
so so.....now..here i am....in the office...waiting for time to knock off before heading off for cell.can't wait! nt sure where we're gonna chill later...but i'm definitely gonna nua at home tom.
on a sidenote....it was nice chatting with you today...you'll always have a special place in my heart. :)
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