I tell myself not to cry....I tell myself that this will be the last time....but everytime i say that...it is never the last time. So tough asking myself to trust you again.
I'm becoming numb. numb to all tt u do. like...it really don't matter anymore and i'm just going thru the motions and when i think of the things you've done to hurt me....my heart just aches and it just feels like crying out. Seriously....i just wanna let go, move on and focus on my career.
Climbing this corporate ladder has been so tiring and draining. I need a break...like i can't seem to stay focused...making the slightest mistakes when i knew it cld have been avoided. Trying to act tough....trying to remain patient...patient with all these pple who just can't seem to stop complaining and trying to bear with the shit i have to clear....apologise for the mistakes i made and still get myself settled down.
I miss those days when I cld head to the gym....and yet enjoy coming back to work even if it's really late. All that energy i used to have seems to have faded away....
And it's only this lil space here where I know I can just pour everything out....feel better and move on.
I need my holiday.can't wait for it.
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