CNY Pics

it's been so long since i uploaded any pics.abit lazy la....but here's some fun tt my team in Orchard did for our company's annual CNY Photo Competition. It wasn't very successful but nevertheless,it was just for the sake of submitting photos.

tt's us!! notice one of my colleague's head seems to be dislodged from his body.

this time....a proper one..we sent this in for the competition.doesnt look very CNY to me tho.

cindy and I, and out 'whiskers' ..oh!and she's one of my buddy's gf..heh

Den we celebrated Jason's birthday on the same day. He's a funny chap,nice guy...very down to earth. A very good colleague who encouraged me alot when I first started on the project.

the birthday boy - -> Jason.look at the number of candles on the cake.hahaha

we call em the gay partners. Brotherhood!haha... John & Jason.

and the present givin ceremony.

tt's all for now!

Great Fellowship,nice food and ambience

i had a great dinner last night with matt and doreen. and i'm truly encouraged even just by having a meal with em. Really miss those Friday evenings praying together, those times we spent hanging out and all...but yet, to Know that God has been good in their lives and how he's providing for em...i just feel happy..tt both of em are growing up!!growing in their faith,trusting in God for His providence.no longer leading a sheltered and protected life.

And then we talked bout me...yeah.....I know God has nv given up on me, and I know He is waiting for me to return...in fact,I've not totally backslidden...and I know He has opened many doors for me to start running back to Him. It's gonna take time....but I do believe tt I will run back to him,like the prodigal son. God has not given up on me,neither have I given up on God.I know where he's leadin me and I know what he is doing in my life. So...I'm just taking it step by step.

His plans are to prosper me and not to harm me.And I believe in it!

I need a JOANNAday!!

just so tired.i need a break.been streesed at work,overwhelmed with all tt is happening...tired of being so emo....and simply tired of always lending my ears to my friends...but nv getting the same treatment in return for all tt kindness.

Sometimes i wonder...why am i so nice?Why can't i just snap or be firm and turn pple down at times? I get bullied in the end...my frends think i'm too nice...and i always say "it's ok" with a smile.sigh....

everytime my friends ask me out...i'm more den happy to meet em up.....but why do i feel sad everytime we have to say Goodbye?it's like i know the nxt time we meet.....will be way months down the road.I love all my friends...yet..i know we're all busy with our lives and no matter how hard i try to keep in touch with every single person,there's always tt much i can afford....and it's draining me out. sheesh...

Joannaday's only gonna come when i turn 23 man...such a long way to go....i'm just whining..and yes...i am OFFICIALLY a BIMBO in training.haha....

TO all my friends who have sent their regards, thank you for your love,care,concern and consoling encouragement. Yup, it wasn't as easy as I thought it wld be, and tt cheery person,still gave in to a lil disappointed and some sadness...but yes.....I am able to smile at the storm because i have Christ in the vessel. Thank you for being there for me! all those small little acts of gesture means so much to me and i really appreciate it.

It's now,time to focus back on work, and on my Lord. :)

i was LATE for work today!!and no,not cos I overslept or anything...but because there was a STUPID TRAIN DISRUPTON from Pasir Ris to Tanah Merah. there were pool and pools of pple gathering and trying to squeeze to get into the shuttle buses to tanah merah....i didn't wanna be part of the squeezy team and decided to take to pasir ris and hop onto express 518 instead.but who knew this stupid EXPRESS 518 wasn't EXPRESS at all. We waited more den 30mins for the bus, and when it finally arrved, everyone tried to SQUEEZE in.it was like some canned sardine. thankfully for me, I managed to get a seat all the way to town. But i wasn't very happy by the time i reached office. Firstly, the train was disrupted. den, the shuttle services are so messy and full.lastly, 518 wasn't express at all and the waiting time during peak period is RIDICULOUS.

I remember i was just talking to a friend yesterday about looking at the brighter side of life whenever we are caught in situations when we're not happy and just feel like complaining. But i just couldn't think of any reasons to remain calm and chirpy. I was LATE for work.yes!managed to catch a short nap...but tt's not the main point. so..anyway....i was tempted to complain to SBS about the waiting time for the bus.but decided not to,knowing tt there'll be pple who'll complain on my behalf.haha..

tt's all for today.wat a way to start a week.sheesh..

and yes!it has kinda ended! and I thank God...he turned it ard when he knew how hard I was struggling with bringing up tt subject.turned out I caught the person and left a msg with this person apologizing and telling me unworthy he is. Wat a relief.haha...i really am.

YAY!!!!i'm OFFICIALLY SINGLE AGAIN!!!!!! feels good.even tho it was short,nothing much happened....but i got to experience(well..kinda) what it's like being in a relationship...and a long distance one sommore.

My friends (those who are christians), always listen to God.because he has tt someone in stored for you. Don't disobey him,because it's not gonna work out.But if it did for you, Good for you. but for me? i know God wants me to obey. I know he has promised me something..but yet..when i got tired of waiting...and i gt frustrated because if God had promised me tt something...(ok..somre of u mmay know the rest of the story,but if u dunno..haha...er...too bad) and thus,i disobeyd and decided to take my own r/s into my own hands.wrong move.and I really want his blessings. I'm gonna wait..yup.patience.seriously not in a hurry.but he shld have talked to me bout it.sigh...wat're u waiting for?

i went singing with my colleagues yesterday!!!and it was REALLY REALLY FUN!!and affordable. Costing only bout $23++ and it includes a buffet dinner.....so....it started off with Jolene and I arriving first,letting the system play songs....and den we headed off to the buffet counter for the not so wide spread of food. but we 'warmed' up abit first while the others went to get food.
we actually got to sing alot of songs and at the end of it,we decided to sing songs tt we used to sing in secondary school....like BARBIE gal...hahame singing the female part in a bimbotic way and my colleague singing in the super man voice.it was damn hilarious.we wanted to sing Butterfly...but....THE SYSTEM DOESNT HAVE IT!!!!and because none of us picked any song thereafter, we were supposed to sing our last song before they shut us out...and my fren...just happened to pick AULD LANG SYNE.haha.....wat an appropriate song to sing.heh..

okie..i can't wait for my next singing session.who's up for it?

i remember how when i was younger,i would always try to talk things out with my friends in the hope that it will build the relationship and make it stronger.but this was only done in church where closer frens COULD be found.

However, pple were rather sensitive and wld usually try to avoid such 'talks' and not resolve issues. My form of communication was a tad too 'harsh' in their dictionary. Den....someone suggested I used email instead.but when i did that, the person obviously wasn't open to constructive critcism or maybe i sounded too 'harsh' and it was humiliating and a form of disrespect to the person.

It was until the loss of some really good frens that I stopped this form of resolving issues knowing it was no use. I lost this trait that wld have come really handy at work. It was a valuable asset.

I had lost my most impt strengths when i needed it most - the strength to speak up when things were not right, the strength to be firm and not be bossed ard and the strength to resolve issues by talking things out.

And so...it caused really bad tension in my previous office....and now,we have this super emo person in this team whom everyone tried so hard to accomodate.Until ytd,this person decided to call everyone up...and me...losing my trait decided to AVOID the situation by not picking up the call. and yes. after she spoke to another colleague, she text me to say she wanted to speak to me and to apologise for the many harsh words she had used on me without realising it. My initial reaction was "huh??do we have to talk?why can't we just pretend nothing happened and just be like friends?"

den as i was thinking bout it before i went to sleep, i realised how NOONE has ever tried talking this way to me and even wanted to apologise to me.I am usually the one who made the 1st move in resolving issues,and none of my frens wld have apologised to me. I realised this is truly how a friendship works - tt pple talk,resolve and apologise when things are wrong. I saw the good side of my team as well. When things go wrong, everyone is for everyone,and we're not in this alone. we all spoke to her and tt's when she realised what went wrong. I've nv felt so close working in a team before...and efforts are made to even hang out together for some team bonding after work. We see each other everyday,8 hrs each time, but yet...it is nv enuff. That's what I call...friendship. true colleagues. I'm enjoying every momentof my time with my company and my team and I truly thank God for all tt has happened thus far.

I may have lost some trait and strengths,but i believe that all things work for good to those who love God. I know he meant well when i had to go thru certain pains in life and I know that at the end of it, i'll emerge a victor.

I'm sorry if i've been sounding emo and negative of late...but really...i'm trying to be optimistic as much as i can.not very negative now already. Cheers guys!

Firstly, I wanna thank those who showed their concern after you read my previous post. Thank you for consoling me. or just listening to my frustrations. I'm ok now.....tho i know it may take a while for me to really get over it and move on. Not tt I have bitterness or grievances...but it's gonna take awhile to come back to reality in a world of christians.

My post may have sounded offensive....and i'll prolly be judged (AGAIN) for the tone, the usage of language and teh very nice vocabulary. but all I wanna say is tt if you know me well enuff...i'm sure u'll know what kinda person i am.and hence...i know tt my good frens wun judge me by what I said. I believe tt u guys are praying for me..and i really appreciate the love.

Thanks guys! i shall blog soon again!!

p/s: why are guys so ......... ARGH!!!

"we've nv expected you to be tt way just because you are a pastor's kids"

"we've nv put any pressure on you when pple comment this way"

Wat BULLSHIT! after all those years of verbal abuse you're telling me tt this was the case? After letting me know how BLACKLISTED i am in church,you're telling me all tt crap?

I'm not some 3yr old kid who'll listen to all these crap only when you've learnt to GROW up.

Always saying things bout how 'sffected' you are when pple talk to you bout me...and telling me how you only share with closer frens....this is all BULLSHIT!

just spending some time talking to me WILL NOT erase all tt scars you have inflicted on me.I'm just so pissed i just wannt cry.

Who cares whether I'm a pastor's kid or not.Those fucking idiots who commented bout me shld just fucking REFLECT on themselves before they comment.Or rather...I shld say...why dun they comment bout their ministry pple, their own kids before they fucking comment bout a PASTOR's kid who is EQUALLY HUMAN!

yeah yeah..christans....supposed to be Godly,supposed to show more love,supposed to love the sinner,hate the sin, supposed to be more sincere and real...these are ALL BULLSHIT lor!how many chrisitans out there are truly good testimonies and can truly be of the world but not IN the world. Crap...coming to church and playing fake is totally UN CHRISTIAN, UNGODLY.So STOP playing Godly when you fucking pple aren't. MINISTRY HEAD sommore.who do u think you are? Go counsel those problematic pple under you first before you mind othe pple's business.BLOODY ASS!

Yes.I'm pissed.Yes i'm fucking hurt. And it's the church tt has brought me to such a state.I've been emotionally scarred,emotionally hurt, verbally abused,verbally judged and condemned. Do you think I give a damn when u fucking comment bout me? NO. Cos i'm just so tired of hearing all these crap and it's ur filthy mouth tt has every right to say whatever you want. I dun GIVE A DAMN!go say all u want.

If you guys are so fucking concern, why dun you use such energy and time to build up the members' spiritual life and nourish em the right way instead of doing things tt are totally a waste of time.

Bloody HELL! wat a fucking judgemental church!

i know...it's been quite a few days since i last blogged.so much to blog..but too cooped up with work,no time to update.

let's start with the light hearted ones den...

WORK
after being transferred to the ORchard branch,i must say that things are looking good. I have really funny colleagues,and we can joke ard openly,'shoot' each other as and when and I 've been working overtime everyday but yet..i dun feel tired or 'de-motivated'. except for 1 colleague who's kinda like a 'pushover'...much better den the political bitch...but still....commanding!nvm....just gotta bear with it till she leaves in aug.long way to go...but i'll train up my tolerance level!

on a spiritual note at work...
i know that IF MY GOD IS FOR ME, then WHO CAN BE AGAINST ME? agree?
Feng Shui? Do u believe in Feng SHui?Not when we have a God who is for us!!
and tt's what happened...my colleague said tt my workstation's feng shui is REALLY REALLY bad....and i shld request to change if i can.and i told him "i dun believe in feng shui..i have god and i'll pray hard"..and he said "well..i also dun believe in feng shui one..but it's really bad"...den i said.."we shall see"...

and GUESS WAT??? 1 week into the relocation and I've closed 2 positions!!!!2 PERMANENT orders!!and it's amazing how things happened.
the 1st position,i only sent 1 resume this week,interview this week and closed the following day. (usually,clients will insist on reviewing a few candidates before they offer,but this client heeded my advice.because I reassured her abt many factors).so Praise God!!the cdd wanted to think it thru because the location was a worrying factor...but i chose to pray and commit everything to God.Was actually prepared for her to reject the offer.But my Lord answered prayers!!!

the 2nd position-it was like a battle lost....because my client was not happy tt i was so slow in sending her resumes...and she kinda 'complained' bout me to my other colleague who was going to take over from me when i transferred.I was upset but suggested to my mgr to let my colleague take over since client wanted her to anyway...and if my cdd was offered the job,the revenue will still go under me.and i didn't think much of it after i transferred cos i was so busy with the handovers and stuff until an email came in.when i called my cdd,she had already signed the offer letter!!haha...I'm just so amazed at how God can turn things into his children's favour.

Lastly,another client who is ABSOLUTELY very fickleminded when it comes to headcounts and positions...i had this position where i had sent like 5-6 cdds and none got offered until 1 went on to the 2nd round...and after tt they decided that they wanted to change the positon and all tt crap...and i was fed up with em..complained to my mgr and we decided tt we shld nt service em.with a twist of BLESSING, i was informed tt they now wanted a 3rd intw for my cdd who was initially disappointed and i was told..tt her chances of getting the job is high.

AMAZING ISNT it??the position was to be considered closed and all seems lost until God intervenes.....u just see how miraculous it is.What man cannot do, God can. Nothing is impossible with God.

Praise God for his favour at work.I've proved tt there isn't such a thing as BAD feng shui...or...to start with,feng shui.

on a heavier side...i attended some conference today...was UTTERLY disappointed with it.it wasn't the supposed speaker they 'advertised' and this speaker didn't seem very anointed in my opinion.she was just sharing bout her personal relationship with God,no biblical verses to support or really encourage...and there wasn't a sermon at all.it's all bout her life and her experiences with God.many will say she's good,her altar call and everything was good.but i felt NOTHING,NOTHING at all.usually,even if i wasn't touched..it's pretty obvious to me God's presence is there....but i left feeling really down and disappointed.just felt many things were not right.shan't comment much.i feel alot better after typing out my praise report.So...till the nxt posts!!Miss ya all!!

p/s: he gave me a box of chocs!!!dun tell u who!!hehe

Happy 2008!!!

2008!!! Here we come!!

A very happy and blessed New Year to all my pals out there!!!

2007 came and past very quickly. For me that is. I've been with Adecco for 1 year already and I'm still here. Praise God I'm still here. Was just sharing with my family how I'm a "3min hot person". and I'll be transferred to the Orchard branch wef 3rd Jan afternoon.

I'm not sure wat lies ahead for me. It's scary yet exciting but I'll trust in the Lord.

So....have u guys come up with any new yr resolutions? I usually don't come up with em and when I do, I nv acheive any of it.haha...but I decided that I'll try to achieve my resolutions this yr.

1. Find a bf (haha..ok..this is out of the uqestion)
2. Draw Closer to God. Return back to him.
3. Improve my dance techniques - learn to choreograph, sign up for more dance classes etc
4. lose at least 5kg (it's time i got back in shape.haha)
5. Cut down on gossipping (hmm...shld be able to..say bye bye to the pOlitical BITCH!!woohoo)

ok.that's all for now. Can achieve all these good enuff liao. Nxt post...pics of my outing to the zoo. Upsoo up soon!!look out for em. Cheerios!