For my bestie

Read ur blog my dear, but i dun think i've the time to really talk to you on msn or meet up with you but I can totally understand how you're feeling.

Bout tt relationship with God, there was a period I felt tt way too. When loud music or jumpy music was sang during service, I wasn't as enthu as I used to be about dancing or showing how I love God and stuff. I just felt stagnant.I cldn't push myself to a higher level or to show tt enthusiasm I used to have.

Serving in church
Prolly like you, i used to serve very actively in church.from children min all the way to adult outreaches, wherever was called,i'll take it up and serve my whole heart out.

But i realised that working has caused me to stop serving tt actively and i actually suffered a burn out. Till now, I'm still not as active and enthu as I used to be. And I'm still suffering the effects of a burn out.

But I just wanted to encourage you and tell you that it's normal to feel this way.Do not think of it as you have sinned. God knows your heart. What's more important is that you still love God and you still want to draw closer to him.

When I went to church, it was more like being accountable to my parents, so that they cldn't nag at me for not turning up.Until 1 sunday when I finally found God.His presence was so real and he totally spoke to me.

I think I sound like i'm going in circles. Phil Colins once said tt many a times, we only read the bible when we FEEL like it. So if you FEEL tired,den u wun read the bible. But shld our FEELINGS play a part when we do our QT?

So i learnt tt even tho i may not FEEL enthu about dancing and stuff in church, I know I still love God and tt's what keeps me going.

It doesn't matter if you're not serving actively in church. Service to God does not mean just serving in church. There are so many contexts that can define your service to God. It can also mean serving in the marketplace, serving at home,serving in the community.

Babe, you get what i mean don't you?

So....I pray that you will ask God to give you a deeper Hunger for His Word, a desire to draw closer to Him. Don't be affected by the people around you. Rmb,it your walk with God tt matters more than anything.

Love you!hugz!