I didn't know Britney had such a nice song until today?Yeah...it's kinda meaningful..actually sounded as if she wanted to start afresh and all...but sadly...she's liddat still.I used to adore her when she first started. That young,innocent, sweet peronality.All gone when one rises to become a hot celeb. Sad for her.I'll try to upload the song...

My dear shah shah!!!add me on msn ok??I need your help now!!my msn: joanna_jota@hotmail.com. Thanks darling!

Nothing seems to be the way

That it used to

Everything seems shallow

God give me truth

In me

And tell me somebody is watching

Over me

And that is all I'm praying is that

Someday I will understand

In God's whole plan

And what he's done to me

Oh but maybe

Someday I will breathe

And I'll finally see

I'll see it all in my baby

Don't you run too fast my dear

Why don't you stop?

Just stop and listen to your tears

They're all you've got

It's in you

You see somebody is watching

Over you

And that is all I'm praying is that

Someday you will understand

In God's whole plan

And what he does to you

Oh but maybe

Someday you will breathe

And you'll finally see

You'll see it all in your baby

You'll see it all in your baby

No moment

Will be more true

Than the moment

I look at you

It's in you

You see somebody is watching

Over you

And that is all I'm praying is that

Someday you will understand

In God's whole plan

And what he does to you

Oh but maybe

Someday you will breathe

And you'll finally see

You'll see it all in your baby

You'll see it all in your baby

You'll see it all in your baby

You'll see it all in your baby

I've gone too far
and I can't go far
God don't give up and
don't let go

God loves me more than I deserve
He sent his son to suffer and die
For a sinner like me, ashame I should be

Lord please forgive me for all i've done
Help me O Lord,to turn back to you
The road ahead is rocky and tough
The Promised Land seems so far ahead
I can't go on but I can't let go

Help me to press on Lord
To rely my strength on yours alone
To lean not on my own understanding
But to trust in you with all my heart soul and mind.

The decision is mine
I compromised and defied
I hung on because of pride
He became the one i dislike

A choice I made
A choice I regret
To let go or hold on
To move on or stay on

To let go and Let God
is the answer to all.

Christmas in Singapore

I had a splendid rest this Christmas. Slept almost the whole day ytd,came back rejuvenated for work today.

This Christmas is rather special. After so many years of attending different christmas parties, I enjoyed the one held on Sunday best! It was the adult cell's party at Coffee Master and I liked it so much because instead of the usual potluck,we had very christmasy food.

The Dinner Menu:

Dinner Menu
Appetizer
1) Smoked Salmon
2) Tuna Loin
3) Cheese Sticks
4) Cesar Salad

Main course
1) Baby Pork Ribs
2) Roast Beef
3) Baked Cheese Mussels
4) Pan fried Salmon
5) Scallop
6) Deep Fried Calamari
7) Spaghetti
8) Honey baked ham
9) Vegetable
10) Baby potato

The food was a blast! The calamari was gone within minutes,and the tuna loin was something very special. All thanks to Robin for the hard work and service! And for Merlinda and Robin,opening up the place to hold the party.

The games were rather well planned too. We had a round of ice breakers, followed by dinner,den some christmas singsiration and finally,gift exchange!

Not too disorganized,nor too boring. Well done to the organizers Betty and Szr Hwei for all the hard work and effort put into organizing this. I really enjoyed myself.

Pictures of the party will be up soon. Once I receive all the phontos from the camerapple.hehe..

As for my presents....well....to be continued...

Wow...another day of PH tom...and 1 more nxt week before it's back to Square 1.

Celebrated Dad's birthday on Wednesday, and I'm glad this time my bros took the initiative to plan..albeit not very organized and stuff but at least they finally made the effort. We went to jack's place and all except Miah ordered beef. I was a lil disappointed with mine tho. Felt it wasn't as good as compared to Aston's. But bro felt his was quite nice and very juicy. Guess I made the wrong order.heh...

We wanted to blow the bday cake over there,but was too full to even contain any dessert. Hence,it was off back to home till like 10pm. Our digital camera seemed to have stopped functioning and we used my camera instead.well....here's what happened.

i kinda like this pic, miah looks like a lil boy here,so amazed at how the birthday cake looks.haha...goodness he's gonna become a teen in 2yrs time but he still looks like a lil kid!

dad and the cake.he looks tired.all the time spent working not just in church but even at home. He's my #1 dad!!!

- Nv throws his temper at us

- Very patient,loving

- A man after God's heart

- Uses his life as an example

- Faithful

- Can do everything from household chores to the manual stuff

( When mum passed away, dad actually helped me to bun up my hair. THere was this stick thing tt was in fashion den, and he saw the video instructing the ways to tie it up and when we went back,he managed to perfect it!my dad's amazing ain't he?

Then there were the times when a pipe,or a circuit or any mechanical or technical stuff seemed to have stopped working, Dad will be the one fixing it. Even if he can't do it,he'll keep trying and experimenting until he figured it out)

- Helpful

(When I had my shop, even tho he was so tired from work and all already, he came down at night just to help me fix the lights. This was something he hadn't done before - the wiring in bugis street and homes are really different, but he fixed em all for me nontheless and the nxt day,he still had to wake up early for svc.)

There are just so many illustrations I can go on and on about my dad. The thoughts of em simply warms my heart. But I shall stop here.haha..

mum and dad

this is what happens when u use a cameraphone to take pics. it was set to timer mode,but we cldn't see the screen because my phone is so slim,it'll fall off without support.so we tried with this.

den we tried again...but.....the cake's still missing!hahaha....but we were all happy. wat's more impt is the family picture.

supposed to use photoshop to add in some wordings..but haven gotten down to it yet.soon soon!

God's plan?

When it was time to move out of Church and back into Tampines, I was reflecting more of what God was doing in my dad's life. The first significant 5yrs was abt his walk with God (not sure if daddy will let me disclose this, so I wun specify wat exactly), and then for 5years, God called him to servie in COS Woodlands. It was something that he initially rejected going over,but knowing it was God's call,obediently,he went. We were truly blessed over there. Samson and I were very pampered there, always receiving very generous gift vouchers on our birthdays and expensive toys on Christmas and sometimes for no special occasion at all. Because of my dad, we received blessings we didn't deserve.I really felt like a Princess there.

Best of all, i remember my bible knowledge den was VERY GOOD!Sam and I used to top the Sunday scholl classes during bible quizzes and even tests. (Yes,we had sunday sch tests). Albeit,COS Woodlands is a small church,but the kids were really close.And I rmb how all of us and even the teens will get together to disturb the young couples.hahaha....looking back,it sure brings a smile to my face.

Moving Forward, my dad was called back to serve in COS Marine Parade after 5years of service in Woodlands.And for about 5yrs and abit more later, our family was asked to stay in church.Time flew,5 years passed and we were back in Tampines again. These were the significant 5yrs of my dad and my family's life. Together, we served whereever Dad was called to.So I thought,maybe this time,it was just Dad tt was gonna be called into some other significant 5years. We dunno bout that.Prolly God will reveal it soon.

Now..let's talk bout why I feel this time,it's about me and not my dad. I nv knew moving house was tt tiring esp when I'm working full time and had to juggle with other personal commitments, and when we moved back to tampines, I personally feel that it's kinda going into the misison field. If you compare the living conditions of tam and MP, i'm sure many will know MP is kinda like a place where the mostly well-to-do resides.So it was 5years of blessings,and back to serving in the neighbourhood.I've adapted to my hometown again...and settling in comfortably again.

But...God still seems to think I'm too comfortably settled down,and He decided that it was best for Joanna to move...BUT this time,it's not about moving house. But in 2008, a colleague and I will be transferred to another office. Most pple will feel it's good. Yup.good...because i no longer have to face the detestable political bitch everyday.YAY! Good, because it's kinda like a career progression for me as I will be handling 1 key account,doing more bulk rectuitment.Woohoo! Good,because it's nearer to the management, which means ur efforts will be recognised.

But why am i dreading it?Because I've gotten to know many good colleagues here,if you dun think of those political pple. And I'm definitely gonna miss those lunch hours spent bitching and crapping and laughing. Moving on means having to settle down in a new office,getting to know colleagues all over again, taking time to find out the office's protocol. And it also means having to wake up earlier,travel further, expenses will increase.

But all in all, I know He's prolly teaching me/reminding me of many biblical pple eg Abraham, Moses...etc...tt when God told em to move,they moved obediently w/o questioning him. I will learn to move obediently, cheerfully and continue to Trust the Lord who has brought me thru so many circumstances,the Lord who has taken care of me and blessed me all these 22 years. I'm coming out of Egypt,into the promised.

Is his will really for me to become a missionary?tt don't know.But I'll listen,obey and take 1 step at a time.

Enchanted

I finally got to watch ENCHANTED!!!! It's such a nice lovely FAIRYTALE!!and it's been some time since I last heard any princessy fairytales since I grew up.

The movie is a show well done, how they incoperated cartoon farytale and reality..it's like surrealism!haha....and when you got out of the movie,you seriously feel as if you just came out of a fairytale. Plus the main actress has such a lovely voice..the songs she sang were so lovely. Definitely worth buying the VCD/DVD. i just love musicals like these!! Reminds me of good old musicals like Sound of Music, Annie, Mary Poppins.

my weekend

it was an interesting weekend...a turn of events...



supposed to go to the zoo on sat,but last min 1 of my colleagues had to go to the hospital as her mum has to undergo some operation. in the end, i swapped duties with her,came back to the office to work 1/2 day. Was quite fun tho. Ended up chatting with the other on duty colleague.hehe...



And I ended up going jurong for awhile...to the other office if u get wat i mean...can't disclose here...realised how 'unhelpful' the pple there were.quite a disappointment as compared to when i first went there for lessons. mentor doesn't really help as well but it taught me once again to be independent and not rely on anyone...esp if i really wanna be a tentmaker,i can't expect pple to help me.it's gonna be a 'dog-eat-dog world".

oh..did i mention bout my shopping trip??? I went taka to shop for christmas gifts last week.bought just a few gifts only but it cost so much.ahhhhh....but it's really nice to see your frens smile when u give them gifts.of cos...those who have been receiving cards from me will know,this yr is no exception and it's once again,a one of a kind unique christmas card.hehe...i'm so excited!!

oh..did i mention?I bumped into jimmy and tina!! both of them still look as charming as ever,it's as if they nv grew up. Tina was once my mentor, but the usual practice,disappeared after awhile. ahaha...I seem to have a history of mentors who'll mentor me at the beginning for a few mths and poof!i'm on my own again. Jimmy was my leader when i attended THE WALK training camp. He was like a big brother to me, spurring and encouraging me thruout the camp,he was like a big bro.hehe....really miss those times.

And so....shopping on a friday festive month ain't fun at all. I ended up waiting for the bus for like 30mins for the bus. By the time i boarded the bus, i received a text from my friend tt she has already reached home.dots!!! what made the journey back even more frustratin is the fact tt the jam in orchard was so bad, i reached home only 1 and a half hrs later.usually,i'll be hm within 45mins.

Anyway...shopping was fun. went bugis street with my cousin yesterday...as usual,i ended up getting something from Yvonne's shop./ Yvonne's my very good fren.we used to be shop neighbours and she'll look after my stall everytime i'm out of town or when i'm not feeling well.and when i've not sold a single item for the day,she'll try to get her customers to buy something from me. There was no jealousy,competition between the 2 of us. She may be from China,but isn't slutty,shrew, bitchy at all. I truly cherish our friendship and sometimes when i go ddown to have dinner with her,she'll give me a treat. Oh!and you know wat?I'm this short,and she's that tall. I'm bad at chinese,she's bad in English.haha...I guess...opposites really attract. On top of all her good traits,she's a good listener as well as a good conversationalist. I always enjoy every single minute spent with her. One of my besties no matter how often we dun talk, no matter how unoften i visit her.hehe...

yes..so my sunday evening was spent watching star awards and asian idols. It's such a surprise tt SINGAPORE won.issit cos most singaporeans own a mobile and can afford to spend their money on voting?hmmm...

Friday! Friday! Friday!

it's Friday again!!!we all look forward to a relaxing weekend...and I'm going to the zoo tomorrow!!! Can't wait!!!

Tonight...it'll be a time of christmas shopping at Taka.Hope to get good buys. whee!

Have a gr8 Friday!!

the office is quiet..and i just feel like blogging.

had a packed weekend.....celebrated dearest YUNZ bday and it was a rather relaxed celebration where we sat down to sing some songs and had some entertainers like john,felicia and moses entertaining us with their nonsense. took a cab back with Ruth and we had so much to talk about.

Friday,went to help out with the thanksgiving,watched the concert and I was greatly touched by it. Not by the show actually..but more like the efforts, the preparations and attitudes of every single one who played a part of this grand event.

Sat...woke up late,had breakfast with my relatives,slacked awhile before spending most part of the day rebonding my hair. It's nice! I like it! *Grinz*

Attended 1st svc on Sunday just so I can spend some time with Mo,Sean and Yunz at breakfast before trying to get some calls done to arrange some viewings...and because it was raining so heavily, i ended up spending some time with Ruth again.hehe...she really appreciates my crappiness.heh

been thinking so much bout my attitude of late....and i realised how distant I've grown away from God.It's so easy to talk bout God in front of people,but personal relationship?it's just not there.I've not been setting aside time for God and I just feel so terrible bout it.I miss tt relationship, tt closeness and I yearn for more of Him. But somehow,it just seems so difficult to be right there with him. I've done things tt have made him upset and even tho i know he lovs and forgives, how can i take his love for granted?

aAnd thru this period of time,God continued to shower his love for me. Someone offered to sponsor HALF my driving fees and told me not to worry bout the money if tt's the reason why I'm not taking lessons.like WOW!i didn't even pray or ask for it. I turly feel blessed and I really dun wanan take God's love for granted.

Pls pray tt i'll draw close to God again..

PICTURES!!

and I've received some of the pics I took recently...so here they are...

meet Gwen the Funkilicious babe!she's very friendly and funny!

Chiew Ling, have been introduced b4,she's my bestie at work! Quiet,but crazy when she's just with me! *Grinz*

meet Adrian and my manager doing what she usually does with her hand.The ELEGANCE of it!heh

and so...they call me the mushroom

my buddy @ work,showing off my mushroom concoction

doing this will make us look 5kg slimmer

Jaslyn,the pregnant MAMA

a candid shot of us during our recent company dinner.it's like posing for some lovely ad.heh

Now tt's all folks!shall upload more pics when they are sent to me!

i'm JUST NOT IN THE MOOD to work.*yawnz* early mornings are usually liddat.and by the time I'm ready and in the mood to work....it's about time to knock off.Which EXPLAINS why i can't be working an office hour job. I'm simply just not a morning person. doing this everyday is such a dread.

Office job makes me feel like a bird caged in...with no freedom. this is like our prison,we sit here for more than 8hrs,stare at the com the whole time, bear with the gossips...and PATHETIC leave.haha...

ahhh!!okie..i'm whining.i really miss those days when i had all the freedom,go for my holidays when i feel like it,and more imptly, the working hrs is my ideal working hr.hahaha....start at 2...knock off at 8.

okie..i can't wait to embark on my new career although i've learnt not to be impulsive which means..i just gotta keep praying for God's strength to bring me thru this whole period of torment.

Nevertheless,I've made many wonderful colleagues here as well. a day w/o em makes me burn lesser calories, a day w/o their company is like a day without the sun shining. Yes!they make me luff and I make them luff.

We just had our company welfare dinner agian..and thru from the journey,during the meal and back home,it was just a whole time of laughing and teasing and all.

Photos will be out soon!wait till my colleague uploads it.Alrights...whining's over!till den!

Thank YOU!

Thank God!!! Came into the office early this morning,reminded jane bout searching for me, den she asked me to call Uncle James and he managed to save the cross stitch.

I'm filled with happiness and relief. Just couldn't bear the thought of losing something so precious.

Thanks Ee foo, for going down to my old hse just to help me salvage the cross stitch.

Thanks grace for the little tag of comfort.

and also to my pals who consoled me last night on MSN.

It really warms my heart to see I have friends who will be there when i really need em. Thank you for all this little acts of love!! :)

the tears just start rolling down everytime i think of it..

How could he have forgotten it??All of things...he forgot the most precious gift that money cannot buy,and something we can nv get anywhere.
She was his beloved.his one and only precious.noone can replace her.i know tt's for sure.it just breaks my heart to know i'm nv gonna be able to look at that piece of art and be reminded of my late mum. it's never gonna be by my bedside everytime i wake up.

the moment i heard tt they've knocvked down everything..my tears just couldn't stop rolling down.i just hope tt i will not get angry with my dad.i just hope tt i can pretend nothing happened...i just hope that i can really move on.

but everytime i think of the efforts mum put into making those cross stitch....the love she showered upon me...the cross stitch she made specially for me...the design i chose....i just can't help but get upset with my dad for FORGETTING the most PRECIOUS gift.i remembered reminding him to bring back the cross stich as well.it was right there,next to all the stuff tt i needed him to bring back for me.how cld he say tt he has forgotten it???HOW CLD HE???!!!!

i just pray tt jane will be able to find at least the cross stitch even if the frames have been spoilt.

Pls pray tt i wun get upset with my dad.pls pray tt all's not lost yet.

Wedding Weekend

It was a really hectic weekend for me!!!
Sat came down to work in the morning before rushing down to attend Justin's wedding. Attended his wedding dinner last night and well...it didn't end as late as most wedding dinners usually do, however,still considered late because of the fact tt I've gotta sit for a paper today tt I'm totally not confident in.

However, committed everything to God knowing tt I shld not let failure get a stronghold over me. How can I assume tt I'll fail this paper without even taking it? How can I be defeated when the battle hasn't even begn?If i tell myself tt I've lost, eventually...i WILL lose.So i prayed agst it knowing tt i've tried my best reading thru my textbook.I can only pray for God to fight this battle with me and thank my fellow prayer warriors for praying for me today. Thanks guys! ineed EXTRA wisdom from above today.

Now..let's talk bout the wedding...Surprisingly,the food was good!as compared to the previous time when I had a company buffet dinner, yesterday's surpassed watever was served at the buffet. The dessert was really good too..it was some mango thing..tasted like mango.(DUH!).haha...but i was too full to have 2nd helping. *joanna shldn't be eating too much anyway*.heh..

Den halfway during the dinner,mel ad bev saboed the couple by getting em to do actions to a song which they spontaneously did and i have to admit, they were not just sporting but they did it REALLY REALLY WELL!!

kim's aunties did some sort of drama...i thought it was so so only because after awhile..it became too draggy.all in all, ambience was good, food was good and company was good too.

Now...i look forward to meeting up with all my friends --->Class 4E 2001 class gathering, meet up with my babes from here...christmas party at work, ex classmates from MDIS and ex colleagues from Jeregon and all my long time good friends whom i've not met or caught up with for so long.

Grace!! Let me know when you're free ok??So I can quickly slot it into my schedule.I can't wait to see ya!!!

Tt's all for now.May u guys have a blessed week!!

GoodBye FPM....

Today marks the last day of YPM Friday Prayer Meeting. And I feel a tinge of regret,disappointment and sadness...

I've been in Prayer Ministry for about 5 years when Chris just took over...and transited to matt,came doreen who joined us...3 of us --> Matt, Doreen & I, the core for Prayer min...we've been thru it together for 3 years and now...it's time to say goodbye.

I remember how when we first got together, 3 of us wld think of nice exotic places to go for dessert. I remember very clearly once we had no idea where to go and decided to just drive around east coast and siglap and decided tt we'll settle on the cafe tt we've nv been to and liked the feel of it.but in the end,i think we ended up not eating at all.haha...

Then,Matt decided that we shld all meet up on Friday mornings to jog,pray and have breakfast.Doreen was still studying,taking her diploma for drama or something and I....had all the time in the world cos i had my own shop.We were at the closest because we had so much time to share bout our week, encouraged one another with our ups and downs,and how God pulled us through and then we'll pray for each other,prayed in the Spirit and asked God for prayer pointers before we discussed,talked further and headed off for breakfast. That was our strongest time,and we had almost 20 pple turning up for prayer mtg.unity was there.

Perhaps...we weren't ready/prepared enuff for the big number,and attendance started to drop from 20...to 15....10....and den...5...or less...

It was also a time when Doreen went back to teach,and I...started working.We met lesser and lesser,prayed lesser and lesser and things started to tear us apart (ministry wise).We felt totally drained out with all the commitments and deadlines and pple who served alongside us just dropped out due to personal commitments.

It was a disappointment to see these pple falling out....but sometimes...i wonder if i was the cause of it...due to some personal relationship problems,had I caused these pple to feel weird attending FPM?Or....caused em to stop supporting us because of tt personal problems?I will nv know...but till now,i still think that I was the cause for the fall of FPM. Had i wake up my idea,had i matured earlier....things may not have turned out the way things are now....

I know God still has plans for me in the area of prayer....I know..he wants me to support YPM Prayer ministry...but because of the problem..and disappointment...i know I can nv continue playing a part in this ministry.Besides, the burden is too heavy for me to bear.

Reflecting back on all that has happened in FPM,the good and the bad,the pple who started off with us, the pple who came....and left....these are all special memories that I'm sure those who feel for FPM will always remember. I know that God WILL DEFINITELY rebuild this ministry and I pray that the person he has in mind will take up the challenge and lead the young pple to greater heights.

FPM...will always be a part of my ministry 'memories'.....the only ministry tt I actually committted for so long,yet nv feel like giving up....or feeling tired even tho it takes up my fridays...but i guess...when u gotta go...u gotta go.

To my fellow core members....

Matt,you made a great LEADER...thanks for always giving me a chance to explore new ideas, for always believing tt I had potential....for not condemning me..like many would and for being such a great friend. This is not the end of the ministry for u.Make full use of those 2 years to learn and experience more of God and bring back whatever you have learnt to share with many young people who are hungry for more of God.

Doreen...the one who's always late...u were the best mentor and friend i had!Thanks for being there at my lowest point of time,bringing me to the HK cafe,showing me where secret garden was and comforting me when i needed it most. You've been such an encouragement and I know that God will definitely bless you when you're out there tentmaking!Continue to be tt supportive friend u are...and i know u're a great sister and daughter to your family too. God bless u!!

to the NOW regular members:

Ee Foo: U're always an encouragement,supporting this ministry with your words of encouragement. I see you have a heart for the young people.Don't let go of this desire to mentor them.Your efforts are not in vain and God sees your heart. Great is your reward. I'm encouraged to see you persevering despite all the 'politics' in church. Hang in there bro!

Zhao Yan: Language may be a barrier...but yet..ur prayers are ever so sincere...I pray that you'll continue to shine for God and be a testimony to the many in church. Keep praying!

my bro: tho you dunno the existence of my blog..and i wun wanna disclose this blog add to you.(sorry..wanna keep this blog as confidential as i can), I know you desire to pray and grow in this area too. Well....will continue to guide youi from home...if i can.OR...you can assist in pre servie prayer. Keep praying!

To all those who were once regulars of FPM, thank you for sharing the good times with us. We really missed you and wished you were there for the last time with us. It was the best prayer meeting after so long!

To those who decided to join us after attending the prayer conference, it's encouraging to see u guys wanting to increase your prayer time and increasing your depth of prayer...too bad....it was a tad too late. I pray that God will use you all to rebuild prayer min again...

To all who reads my blog...PRAYER IS THE BACKBONE of EVERY MINISTRY and it is not just for intercessors, EVERYONE is Called to PRay but not just to Pray,but to PRAY IN FAITH.(i quote Matt who made this Prayer Min's objective,you have left a legacy.)

So keep praying!!!

i found a faster and shorter route home from VIVOCITY!!! *beams with ......* whee!i shall go vivo more often now!

All the way to the West!

I went to my other office ytd after work thinking I shld get some work done after lazing and procrastinating for too long, my heels was killing me (new pair la) and from the station to the office it takes bout 10mins to reach?so..there i was grumbling and whining from tanjong pagar to JE.

On my way there...guess who i met??
one of the LOVELIEST couple i've known since i was a young little gal ----> Meng Li and Andy!!!
Meng Li took care of me for 1 sunday school camp and I remember how much i adored her that whenever this other girl tried to snatch the attention away, i rmb how i'll try ot grab her attention again.haha....so young but already know how to fight for attention.heh...

As for Andy, I knew him when i was a young teenage gal and just joined TC. I was in his cell - Timothy and there were quite a number of hunks and babes there.Andy qas no exception.haha..i rmb how some of us will admire him from afar and exclaim how cute he looks.But looking back now, well..it was really very typical of teenage gals.

This couple have been together for almost a DECADE! and I'm so happy to hear that they're finally tying the knot next year!!

ok...back to my lousy day....after i went to the office...they told me they were closing.wah!!when I heard tt,i became even more sian. Thinki8ng of the time wasted travelling down,worried bout not having sufficient time for revision and the time taken to travel back.

What made my day worse was that when i reached tampines, i went to the interchange to buy my dinner.decided on yong tau foo.the pple serving had a very bad service and i tried not to let it affect me.when i reached my bus 'stop', the bus just left. so ended up having to wait very long, with my aching feet! Den...while waiting,i found out tt the plastic bag was leaking!!!argh!!the container wasn't tightly closed and the chopsticks had caused a small hole in the plastic bag.

Wash!!at tt time ah...i really super super super sian.Den suddenly a thought came into my mind..God maybe teaching me Perseverance. Everytime i feel like it's a bad or unlucky day, I try to link it up in a positive way and think if there's something God is trying to teach me.So after i thought about it, i just thanked God for whatever happened and I felt better immediately.

I guess everytime something bad happens, there is always something we can learn from it. I learnt not to wear new heels when i know i'm gonna do alot of walking.haha..no la..i learn to give thanks in all circumstances.

On a happier note, i just dyed my hair ALL BLACK!!woohoo...messy and troublesome.nxt time,i shall just pay more to get the hairstylists to do it. will be rebonding my hair soon! I can't wait!!

EMO

i've been feeling emo of late...was worse after i came across a particular blog...but after thinking much about it....i just feel so dumb as to why i shld get affected by it.yup.prayed bout it and simply commited it to God.

I know i'm not perfect, and I know it's time to resolve issues,but yet...it takes alot of GUTS and pride. It's easy putting down tt pride....but the guts?i seem to have lost it all.yup.the person who hated avoiding issues, the person who always wanted to talk things out,clarify matters cease to exist. I just feel that sometimes the more i try, the worse the situation becomes and hence, i give up explaining or clarifying myself and just keep quiet and avoid stuff.

Was just chatting with a gd friend of mine bout office politics and how true it is...we all live in a fallen world and we really need God's strength to overcome everything. I feel like i've been a bad testimony at work, and it's not easy getting along with pple who step on ya toes. Lord, Please help me to get along with the pple who hurt me, push me over at work and to show em the love you have for me. Being a child of yours,I pray tt you'll help me to PUSH and Press on. Amen!

I just feel like adding this in.It's so RANDOM..but...well..haha
Life IS like a BED of Roses,because even though roses are lovely, they come with a price ---> THORNS.So.. Let's pray that whereever we are, we'll fight the good fight, and continue to be strong WARRIORS for Christ!

New Week...

it's monday again!!and as usual...it's back to an environment where everyone is just play acting. sometimes,it's not the job tt makes u wanna leave...it's wat your colleagues are doing tt simply irks you. I thought to have 1 such colleague is enough,but there came this new staff who joined us a few months ago, initially, we all thought since she was way older than us,she will be more matured..but few months down the road, the true colours show up.haha...she's equally similar to the like of the political person tt most of you wld have hear me mention and it's just very disgusting looking at how these pple tryso hard to get the manager's attention,act pathetic in front of the boss but at work,are the pushovers,the one giving problems and pusing the blame to me and this other colleague.

Gosh! thank goodness i'm not here for the promotion,else,i dunno how affected i'll be.ys!everyone's just trying to so hard to be the next senior consultant (tt's the nxt level of promotion) and me?hahaha...i seem happy getting by,looking forward to pay day every mth till the day i quit. Which i'm looking forward to.

An office environment like this sure turns pple off and had i known earlier that the environment was like this,i wld rather have started off as a receptionist or something. I was conned..haha..but nevertheless,there's alot of things tt i can learn from here, so I'll just see it from an optimistic point of view tt God's teaching me something here and i'll take every opportunity to learn and experience more of him.

I praytt u'll have a blessed week and things will fine!! till the next post!! ;)