i'm in shock! tt it had to end this way....
by the time u read this.....i hope u're ok... and things are fine on your side.
thanks for the memories! short it may be....but you showed me wat love is...and feels like.
thank you. and all the best to you!!
tired
2 weeks since i last had a reallly good sleep....worrying over my exams...rushing thru the assignment just so my lecturer cld vet it and I'll be more assured of a better grade...
last minute favours from work....resulting in OTs and yet, still not able to even get any of my work done...i'm feeling tired....been getting 3-4hrs of sleep and I'm really amazed at how I've survived thus far. Your Grace has sustained me...and your strength is made perfect when I am weak. Thank you Lord.
More meet ups this week....and the week after i'm back from Phuket!
Will upload some pictures this weekend!
last minute favours from work....resulting in OTs and yet, still not able to even get any of my work done...i'm feeling tired....been getting 3-4hrs of sleep and I'm really amazed at how I've survived thus far. Your Grace has sustained me...and your strength is made perfect when I am weak. Thank you Lord.
More meet ups this week....and the week after i'm back from Phuket!
Will upload some pictures this weekend!
Remembering Mum...
this day every year never fails to make me feel very emo....
15yrs has passed....but yet, it still feels as if u were just gone, and I'm still that little girl. Why do the memories of you seem so much clearer now than before? And I miss you even more each passing year...
This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye
As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings, and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face
[Chorus:]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye
(Bye Bye [3x])
Bye bye
And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever
[Chorus]
(bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x])
Bye bye
This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye
And this song speaks so much of how i feel....so much....that tears keep rolling down whenever I hear this song. I'll just start thinking of you.
15 years....
Mummy....I miss you and you'll always be a part of me....and you'll be sure that NOONE can replace you.
I love you mum!
15yrs has passed....but yet, it still feels as if u were just gone, and I'm still that little girl. Why do the memories of you seem so much clearer now than before? And I miss you even more each passing year...
This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye
As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings, and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face
[Chorus:]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye
(Bye Bye [3x])
Bye bye
And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever
[Chorus]
(bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x])
Bye bye
This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye
And this song speaks so much of how i feel....so much....that tears keep rolling down whenever I hear this song. I'll just start thinking of you.
15 years....
Mummy....I miss you and you'll always be a part of me....and you'll be sure that NOONE can replace you.
I love you mum!
I"M BACKKKK!
Philippines was a blast! As usual...the pple nv fail to stop me from missing them....had lots of 1st time experiences even tho it's my 4th time going back there...
met up with him also....gosh! after 8 yrs...and still waiting. I'm honoured. =) and he said..he'll go on waiting....until i get married. Well well well....guess nothing' impossible..but we shall see.
Birthday celebration was really memorable as well....and very meaningful....I'll nv forget my 25th. I'm blessed beyond words. And I still have so many bday treats awaiting me.
Thank you God for all the love and blessings I'm receiving!
Pics and videos to be uploaded soon!
Till then!
Philippines was a blast! As usual...the pple nv fail to stop me from missing them....had lots of 1st time experiences even tho it's my 4th time going back there...
met up with him also....gosh! after 8 yrs...and still waiting. I'm honoured. =) and he said..he'll go on waiting....until i get married. Well well well....guess nothing' impossible..but we shall see.
Birthday celebration was really memorable as well....and very meaningful....I'll nv forget my 25th. I'm blessed beyond words. And I still have so many bday treats awaiting me.
Thank you God for all the love and blessings I'm receiving!
Pics and videos to be uploaded soon!
Till then!
Down the Drain!
Brought the older folks for a fish farm tour....didn't expect they could be like kids...wandering from place to place...or simply just refusing to tag along because they were "forced" to join the tour by their bosses.haha..
But it was fun for me! Experienced my 1st un authentic, man made Long Kang fishing... It's quite addictive I must say and the fishes are so sharp and agile...catching them isn't a mean feat.
All in all, most of them were happy and that makes me happy too! =)
my manager wanted to take a shot of me to "prove" to pple that I was there..hahaha...
how often do u see me in such unglam position? hahaah
1 down
it's just Monday....but the week already started off so hectic....if i am this busy everyday...i'm sure i'm bound to lose some kilos from it.hahaha...what with all the hustle and bustle...skipping lunch....running ard.....losing sleep....i'll....be burnt out definitely! haha
every staff session is different...this time...the hall looked so packed...i was wondering if I had asked for too little chairs.....every session is a different experience...and it's always tough getting everything right. this time round...it was a nightmare because there were so many videos to be played...and some....from video had to quickly switch to songs...and stuff...i was really worried for some of the divisions....cos they really looked like they weren't prepared...but thank God all went well..
and as I'm learning to be a good emcee...i've come to realise....that every emcee has their own style of emceeing and 1 day...i'll have my own style too.But sometimes..the more u hear the same person emceeing, the more "sian" and bored you get...cos u already know what he/she is gonna say...it's just too predicatable..and no longer funny..
I hope tt i will not end up tt way either...haiz..
4 more days before the weekend! it's gonna be another long and hectic day tom....but...I can do it! 10 more days! ;)
every staff session is different...this time...the hall looked so packed...i was wondering if I had asked for too little chairs.....every session is a different experience...and it's always tough getting everything right. this time round...it was a nightmare because there were so many videos to be played...and some....from video had to quickly switch to songs...and stuff...i was really worried for some of the divisions....cos they really looked like they weren't prepared...but thank God all went well..
and as I'm learning to be a good emcee...i've come to realise....that every emcee has their own style of emceeing and 1 day...i'll have my own style too.But sometimes..the more u hear the same person emceeing, the more "sian" and bored you get...cos u already know what he/she is gonna say...it's just too predicatable..and no longer funny..
I hope tt i will not end up tt way either...haiz..
4 more days before the weekend! it's gonna be another long and hectic day tom....but...I can do it! 10 more days! ;)
WHY
And if the vidoe does not remind you of how much God loves you....then I'm sure this does...
"For God so loved the world, that HE gave his ONE and ONLY SON, that whoever believes in him shall not perish...but have everlasting Life"
"Greater Love has no one than this,that he LAY DOWN his life for his friends"
ANd I've experienced so much of God's love for me! If you ever need a boost, reminder or encouragement...u know who to look for! ;)
When God Ran...
God's Love for us...is more than what we can ever imagine!
Heard this song when I was 13...sang it during TC back then....and this song...nv fails to remind me that no matter what I've done, God still loves me as his beloved child.
Lyrics
Almighty God, the great I am
Immovable rock, omnipotent, powerful, awesome Lord
Victorious warrior, commanding King of Kings
Mighty conqueror, and the only time
the only time I ever saw Him run
CHORUS:
Was when He ran to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again”
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice He said,
“Son do you know I still love you?”
He caught me by surprise when God ran
The day I left home I knew I’d broken His heart
And I wondered then if things could ever be the same
Then one night I remembered His love for me
And down that dusty road ahead I could see
It was the only time – it was the only time I ever saw Him run
And then He ran to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again”
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice He said,
“Son do you know I still love you?”
He caught me by surprise as He brought me to my knees
When God ran – I saw Him run to me
BRIDGE:
I was so ashamed, all alone and so far away
But now I know He’s been waiting for this day
I saw Him run to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again”
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice I felt His love for me again
He ran to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again”
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice He said, “Son”, He called me Son
He said, “Son do you know I still love you?”
He ran to me and then I ran to Him
When God ran
Mission Trip
Philippines in less than 13days' time! I'm looking forward to meeting my old friends and catching up on the good ol' times.....yet.....the responsibilities I have to bear this trip round is gonna be really different...
I used to be the youngest....whenever I go philippines...now i have to be the "jie jie" of the group which means more stuff to prepare for and....which reminds me...I have yet to prepare alot of it. Guess I'll have to try and prepare them as much as I can this coming week. But with 4 days of classes, 25km run on sat followed by bday dinner celebration with my awesome 3 good frens....and lunch on sunday with the fam...I realy wonder if i can make it.
On top of tt, work's pretty hectic this week. Seems like it's murphy's law! one come all come...1 dun come...all dun come! And I still have my assignment to prepare and revision to do. Plus FTT's round the corner too....oh God! Help me!
Nevertheless...i'm looking fwd to the short break I'm gonna get. Wonder how L- Mar looks like now.heh...shall find out in 14-15days' time!
I used to be the youngest....whenever I go philippines...now i have to be the "jie jie" of the group which means more stuff to prepare for and....which reminds me...I have yet to prepare alot of it. Guess I'll have to try and prepare them as much as I can this coming week. But with 4 days of classes, 25km run on sat followed by bday dinner celebration with my awesome 3 good frens....and lunch on sunday with the fam...I realy wonder if i can make it.
On top of tt, work's pretty hectic this week. Seems like it's murphy's law! one come all come...1 dun come...all dun come! And I still have my assignment to prepare and revision to do. Plus FTT's round the corner too....oh God! Help me!
Nevertheless...i'm looking fwd to the short break I'm gonna get. Wonder how L- Mar looks like now.heh...shall find out in 14-15days' time!
TGI.....F!!
Thank you...for turning a hectic, frustrating and worrying Friday into a happy, pleasant surprise....after a terrible day of worrying and working till late...ur presence made a WHOLE LOT of difference!
So thank you.....for putting a smile on my face....and u always (well...not really all the time but....) seem to know....when u need to make me happy. (L)! :)
Tonight....will be a good good night!
*Love...is like war..Easy to start, hard to end and impossible to forget. And when it's time to let go....I know....it's gonna be tough....
Spoilt? Blessed?
Yesterday felt like a dream.....I know u're just waiting for me to blog this out...hehe......and i shall blog it out because i wanted to anyway....
Short few seconds....but what a difference it made to my night....,my sleep...and my morning...thk u for ur lil surprise.....IRCWTSU! hehe.....
and all the promises you made to me....(K)! ;)
And on a separate note....bro waited and picked me up from sch after his bday dinner with his beloved! haha......thanks for waiting and for sending me home first. Really made alot of difference after a tiring day.....and not have to squeeze with the nv ending crowd in the train...or waiting for the bus..... at least my knees can rest and i dun have to walk such a long distance! thks bro! and EL for waiting with him and all! :)
Bestie and I love this song....for now.heh
Short few seconds....but what a difference it made to my night....,my sleep...and my morning...thk u for ur lil surprise.....IRCWTSU! hehe.....
and all the promises you made to me....(K)! ;)
And on a separate note....bro waited and picked me up from sch after his bday dinner with his beloved! haha......thanks for waiting and for sending me home first. Really made alot of difference after a tiring day.....and not have to squeeze with the nv ending crowd in the train...or waiting for the bus..... at least my knees can rest and i dun have to walk such a long distance! thks bro! and EL for waiting with him and all! :)
Bestie and I love this song....for now.heh
from 3 months....to the lil surprise...to a month...and now....16 days...or 15 days to be exact. I'm looking fwd to that day......yet....it means the month is coming to an end...and there'll be nothing to look fwd to after tt...i know..there's nv gonna be an ending....neither will we have a beginning...but i'm cherishing every moment now! and i dun care what other pple say...or how others will judge me. this is my space..and i'm glad i nv publicise this space. =)
thank you for always trying to make me smile...whether it's because you enjoy seeing my smile...or times when you just wan me to be happy....thk you...for always trying.
ILU and ICWTSU! go figure tt! hahaha...i shall decode for u on msn!
I know you'll read this....and...... I just wanna say....thk u! ;)
seeing me at my ugliest....my most retarded....my angriest moments....thk you...for still loving me for who i am. there's more expressions you've yet to see...but.....u'll have the chance..dun worry!
thank you for always trying to make me smile...whether it's because you enjoy seeing my smile...or times when you just wan me to be happy....thk you...for always trying.ILU and ICWTSU! go figure tt! hahaha...i shall decode for u on msn!
bollywood
Bollywood was the theme. As usual, the couple looked good....I'm honoured to be one of the invited guests. 16 tables was all they had. And I was seated right at the front. Thanks to Mama Shu who was their emcee. It was really unusual, different yet relaxed wedding.
Congrats to the couple! Stay loving always! =)
Lil Miss Spoilt Brat
I remember when i was younger...whenever I fell sick, i'll always have the privilege of staying at home to rest and recuperate. Even with the previous company....I nv had to take any MCs because I was too healthy.
But now, even the slightest flu and cough can make me feel so weak that I wish I can take the easy way out and ask for an MC. but to do tt, seems so princessy and weak. And i refuse to ask for any MCs. And it got me thinking back to days when I was younger. I remember how in the past, no matter how hard I tried to fall sick, I could nv even reach te minimal cough or flu. And no matter how late I slept, I still had the energy to go about doing my stuff the very next day.
But now...I'm so weak that I fall sick so easily...Mum noticed it too and pointed out tt i cld be due to the lack of hours I get to really rest and have a good sleep. Guess this is all part and parcel of growing up and I just have to really be strong and try to focus at work no matter how weak I am... oh well....3 more days before the weekend comes! Thank God...no plans for the weekend! Which means...a whole saturday spent sleeping!
But now, even the slightest flu and cough can make me feel so weak that I wish I can take the easy way out and ask for an MC. but to do tt, seems so princessy and weak. And i refuse to ask for any MCs. And it got me thinking back to days when I was younger. I remember how in the past, no matter how hard I tried to fall sick, I could nv even reach te minimal cough or flu. And no matter how late I slept, I still had the energy to go about doing my stuff the very next day.
But now...I'm so weak that I fall sick so easily...Mum noticed it too and pointed out tt i cld be due to the lack of hours I get to really rest and have a good sleep. Guess this is all part and parcel of growing up and I just have to really be strong and try to focus at work no matter how weak I am... oh well....3 more days before the weekend comes! Thank God...no plans for the weekend! Which means...a whole saturday spent sleeping!
Happy? Mother's Day
As they sang this in church today, flashed pictures of the youngsters with their mums....and played a video on what they think of their mummies....i couldn't help but tear....
I've come to realised...that every Mother's Day is an emotional day for me. This year seems more emo den ever...could it be the fact tt I'm older, more mature and I start to learn to appreciate the people around me? What would I have become if Mummy was still here with me?
To my dearest mum, Happy Mother's Day. Altho it was a short 9 years spent with you, the memories were good enuff to make me think of you each and everyday...Thanks for being the BEST mum anyone cld have....I'm proud to be your lil princess and I really realy miss u. Can't wait to join you someday up there. =) You'll always have a special place in my heart and noone can replace tt!
Just for you!
Because YOU asked.....so...here's a quick update! ;)
had dinner sometime back with B&R....and the place we went had a power shutdown! gosh! thank God it was rectified and we didn't have to consider a 2nd alternative when we almost wanted to.
my 2 darlings....can't wait to meet up with them to celebrate the day i turn a quarter of a century....they NV fail to rmb my bday after tt 1 fine day...ahha
den i played lamppost.....and we started playing with lights literally!
my twin! looking different tt evening!
had dinner sometime back with B&R....and the place we went had a power shutdown! gosh! thank God it was rectified and we didn't have to consider a 2nd alternative when we almost wanted to.
my 2 darlings....can't wait to meet up with them to celebrate the day i turn a quarter of a century....they NV fail to rmb my bday after tt 1 fine day...ahha
den i played lamppost.....and we started playing with lights literally!
my twin! looking different tt evening!20more days! IRMUUUUUUUUUUU!
recognition!
and she called for an urgent meeting at 1245pm....while some of them were having lunch....so the whole dept had to be there when boss brings up the matter. And I tot something serious had happened...
But lo and behold! Lil did i expect her to recognise me specially! My very 1st FCC (A recognition card we use in the company) signed by all the big bosses in the company! Really very thankful for this recognition because I've always been the one in charge of recognition in the hotel, always creating unique cards for pple.....and when u see their smile upon receiving tt card, you feel happy too. Boss has always given me recognition...but today...it meant so much more...because this FCC is my very 1st one signed by all 8 bosses...including the GM.And it's also an affirmation that my work is not insignificant...and pple do appreciate what i've done.
On top of the card, I was rewarded with a pair of GV movie tickets.hehe...
Thank you boss! I'll continue to set higher benchmarks and do u proud! =)
But lo and behold! Lil did i expect her to recognise me specially! My very 1st FCC (A recognition card we use in the company) signed by all the big bosses in the company! Really very thankful for this recognition because I've always been the one in charge of recognition in the hotel, always creating unique cards for pple.....and when u see their smile upon receiving tt card, you feel happy too. Boss has always given me recognition...but today...it meant so much more...because this FCC is my very 1st one signed by all 8 bosses...including the GM.And it's also an affirmation that my work is not insignificant...and pple do appreciate what i've done.
On top of the card, I was rewarded with a pair of GV movie tickets.hehe...
Thank you boss! I'll continue to set higher benchmarks and do u proud! =)
Emceed...Succeed!
yet another successful event. Was really....pissed,agitated, frustrated at the start...the usual....petrified that this time round, I was on my own to emcee as boss wants me to be on my own. I almost backed out of it...and had such butterflies in my stomach...
Thank God it was a blast! Got recognised by the General Manager, complimented and praised in front of everyone when he was doing the closure. Boss praised me for a job well done. But if she knew what had taken place all before the event...i'm sure she wldn't have said tt.hahaha....But thk God...I wasn't as nervous as i tot I would be. Can't believe I had so much guts and it just felt as if i was talking to a grp of my frens. Glad it's over...
But suffering from the post event.....every qtr...i feel as if i just got married.haha..i'm missing the adrenaline rush.
Thank God it was a blast! Got recognised by the General Manager, complimented and praised in front of everyone when he was doing the closure. Boss praised me for a job well done. But if she knew what had taken place all before the event...i'm sure she wldn't have said tt.hahaha....But thk God...I wasn't as nervous as i tot I would be. Can't believe I had so much guts and it just felt as if i was talking to a grp of my frens. Glad it's over...
But suffering from the post event.....every qtr...i feel as if i just got married.haha..i'm missing the adrenaline rush.
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